So from yesterday and what happened on a few levels.... and what has come to a greater realization for me, i feel the need to elaborate on something.
Partially becasue too.... I am a faction leader... so this affects others in my faction.
*ahem*
I'm not going to make a new thread on this as I do not care about getting this to be huge attention... but if the reader has cared to keep up to this thread, then you will read this too:
I've got a lot of work ahead of me and my mood may turn grumpy at times due to lack of sleep and extreme exhaustion.
Perfect example of this was from a few days ago and the day before where I had gotten things thrown at me and rather than looking at it logically, I went on the other route which involved saying stupid ideas among two people. This also got me to send a PM or 2 to some guy that in all seriousness looking back I should have just kept to myself because it is their decision anyway and I cannot do anything to change a hard-headed person.
As I look at it now, I already know what is going on behind the scenes. I know it is an elaborate and clever plan, but I wont fall for it anymore.
Part of a trap is to not know you are inside the trap. The people have already failed at keeping it quiet. I know now what is going on.
Anyway...
Adding to today, and it's not like I dont know this, but what I am doing in uni will affect me later on in life. Why do I need a dumb game and people to effect that sort of thing? There is zero point in such a thing.
At this point im pretty much done with my explosive stances of things in this game and as I look back I just shrug.
So what if I am put into a bad situation from a collective group of people. Whateve's.
To be honest, I am only here to take a break from my studies and do this Roleplay as a sort of 'hobby' and enjoy myself. There are some plans and goals I still want to accomplish as well that I find interesting to pursue. I also really enjoy playing the disco-diplo game and putting my character and his traits into the heat of things. It's all enjoyable. Having a group and doing things together for the disco game to meet a goal is a nice break.
Again, I am focusing on my studies now so involvement in the game is going to be low, but all that I said in the OP I will try to keep up besides the frequency of events and stuff like that.