What people said, those apology threads tend to do the: "Oh he is a cool chap, he apologized, so we will all have to be nice now" effect. And I saw a lot of those threads. Sadly only a small percentage was honest or it wasn't just a small bright moment.
Time will show
PS: Couldn't read your letter, XP doesn't recognize the file type
PPS: Opened it in a notepad, if you cry over what happened in a PC game and internet community forum, you need to take a break from it.