I can relate to your story. I was pushed around by others a lot when I first joined and people called my RPing horrible, -- Because it was! -- but as I got more comfortable in my newly-bought transport I began to expand my RPing abilities, as well as making a lot of friends within the community. After a few weeks I was being smiled upon for my full-blown conversations I would have with my ship's crew. I can even remember all of their names! The only dreadnought I plan on buying is a Zoner Nephilim, and it will be my exploring ship and home for many years to come...
I don't know if it's possible for me to do this, but everyone else is, and I want to be a part of it!
/Signed
(P.S My forum RPing is still under development, so if you see my horrible RP posts, please don't hate on me too hard.)
(P.S.S The outcast battleship will not go with order turrets, because the order is allied with the corsairs and the corsairs are enemies of the outcasts. Hah, I'm smart!)