Please take note that this is my very first story,
Also, my mother language is not English, it is french. (I believe you are aware of the cosmopolitan origins)
Since I have written A log about character in my journeys,
I will accept people asking for corrections, name-change.
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Hello, I guess that if you read this then that would mean you were one of the one aware of this secret post. First off I never wanted to make such a drama so that is why I systematicly refused to just make a public show about it. Well you know I must tell that the very reason I did left this community was because I could not by any mean enjoy this game. This is what I failed to and as taken me to a point where this game just saddened my days, yes it was that bad.
Not that I hated anyone in particular, the fact is that I could not act like I wished or should I say very few really cared about the experiences beyond a simple futurisk flying shooter game. Afterall I think that it is what this community is, and its alright.. simply not for me, not in such a context.
Talking more positively, I must say Discovery freelancer was both a unique and rich experience in a cosmolitan community that share a common passion. I have met new people, ,incarnated roles unbelievely far from my reality, l learned english at a certain degree but mainly I discover a hidden wonder of game , never again I expect to doscover such a unique environnement that is Sirius in Discovery.
I have started as the normal beguiners, evolved with bigger and bigger ships... then I eventually joined the forum. Then everything went really fast. I found myself immerged with the skype atmosphere, I found a faction fitting my wish ''The IMG'' . At this point I was still hanging with random characters,... it was my dark age... but still a age I miss because I was innocent and everything I expereinced back then was trully unique and not really meanful anyway. I think I owe my entire membership of this community from ''bobthenmanohkitten'' who really make me jump in.
That was then that I forgot about my old ship which I forgot their name, I think it was something like D24 Stellar (a mastodon that I sold), ''Calcinos'' my Outcast Storca that never did anything great but feeding my cap needs. ''Mighty-Typhoon'' , a lane hacker gb that really made me laught for some weeks... but that also got swearled by my RP revolution. What else do I remember? oh, yea I remember that ''Bretonian-Market'' ... how many luxury food embargo breaking did I do with that shire? I think I also touched the corsair and some other I just cant remember ... like a bounty hunter.
Anyway, that RP revolution the ''big day" I said I would jump to a real faction... and tot ell you I was ready, I already had chobby story, a great demand on the recruit channel.. I had it all. Back then IMG| was not that active, I mean i think it took ''Beck''. I must say that here started my golden age the lasted something like 2 months. it was also summer time and I had almost to time limit to play waht so ever. To say the truth the outcast back then never seem as combative as today, =CR= was in good health, IMG| was slowly getting more active and the ICMG re-apperead arround this time as well. I know there was one problem with the faction.. where was that faction Leader? ''Enchetta'' whos I never met him, Beck was gone during that time, and Outlaw was there occasionnaly... and Mikael was still far from coming back. SO yea, we were director less, we were over-independent.
During that period, I developped a good relationship with ZED aka Grail , I mean the day we moved that barge in the tau was priceless. Its something you just can't forgot. I remember srtuggling with you with using all possible way to jump in that hole. And we eventually succeeded.
Oh, I also met Aeternus Doleo, An unsuspectful jewel, I never told you but you were one of the player I had so much appreciation too. Back then, I just gave him as an escort reward a ''useless'' hegemon under the name of Carsten.Miller, which it still hold. He joined IMG| and became a great asset. Althought he do share the same problem that I have, we both ''hate'' pvp , when it comes to a daily basis. And it is a problem in this server, bcause we are victim of all these attacks especially in the taus.
Also, a bit more recently, I have strenghtened relations with Outlaw star, formely just a secondary contact who used to trade codename with me, who became my trade obss in IMG|, but also a friend.. that hurts to leave behind. I am really sorry we could not interact as much as I wished.
About Beck, I must say you are not by any mean, a player that I will forgot, you are the one who gave me the chance to join IMG|, I think you also managed to do your best everytime. I do consider yourself someone to be remembered, not only by me, but by this community.
The there was also that ''try'' with the DSE that never worked because Pharos throw away the sponge, Malenka which I wish I had learned and played more with him.....
Dam there was a lot I missed.... countless things... but when it hurts it hurts. I could not survive my pain with what I had to deal with.
And then, there that endless war I was without knowing at first making myself a warrior, something I could never get ready for. =CR= was initially very strong, very hated ( even today ) . But things went downhill with them, for many who remember they day their entire factions got jailed. I was there, I knew what happened. So you can undertand partly why I left this game, how I was stuck in the tau 23 Issues.
In the day of the =CR= ''Black hole'' period as I recall, there was assault on the outcast home worlds, anahilations, massave combat, and glory.... but that was on both sides. Not only from the neightbords of the north, but also from Gallia, especially the +LE+ , they have always been on us. No matter... it was very dangerous, but progressively things wnet downhill for me....
So yea, first the summer ended, my time with freelancer drooped, I innitially took some distance with the game without loosing interests, but then with the =CR= and general lawful drops in the tau, the unlawful gained the upper hand. After time it was just a matter of behavior, it was similar and non unique RP. And finnaly it became just a baltant pvp show with mandalorians mercenary, gallians pirate, bonty hunter, outcast, CR, the few of us, the other more aggressive IMgs..... and even more. And that almost everyday, and sometime more then once a day and for hours.
I could not also just forgot the tau, as it was a core of interest in my role..... what was initially part of my story, of my future, just got forgotten by all these forced combats... my interests then dropped. Sometime the fun was reversely getting me sad. not Because of who won, but based on the fact that these combats were senseless....
So thing went very badly.. despite my attempts.. it was just too terrible to deal with it... Now I gave up. and Gave up hope of a better future for my gameplay.
The detail of the very end aren't important, just that I kept this end note secret, and that I did not went away without saying a word to my dear comarade. Ã
I think that it is as natureal as growing up that thing must move along at some points, we all have life and this is it. I hope for your happyness, and glory in your lifes, I must go... you will eventually go.... we will all do. I will always has memory of this community, as ever as I live.
With all sincerety, Ian Desari....
You know, one soul can reach game over, but still, even if one is out of ''one-up'' , he can still play the game back from the beguinning hoping hell go further this time.
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