I have shed my tears. I have burned my candle at all three ends. Today I feel at peace, I am at peace because I know that Doug has done what he always dreamed, and never dared hope would happen. He left a legacy, one that will be honored, remembered and will carry on. I had the honor of hosting him and his road dog, a term meant in many ways, but mostly in the literal sense, Sancho, his amazing pup and constant companion. We were friends, we were family, we were enemies, and we were the same. We love to fly. Many times I would come under fire or get that random hail from a ship I've never encountered before, or fired upon his ship unknown to him.... We built memories. I just stayed at his side, returned like many to his side over and over.
Someone said they kind of thought of Mal as immortal, Kyte I believe. My dear, I feel you hit my point right on the head. Thru his work, his participation, his ingenius and innumerable factions, stories, snippets, and sage tidbits, and mysterious and confusing offerings he made to this forum, and quite obviously this community. Mal IS Imorrtal. Mal will never fade. Will never disappear. Everytime someone enters Baffin, they will see him. Everytime someone sees a TAZ, ~V~, Waverly, or gets a random charge to their account from F-Unit unknown, they will have been touched by his love and carry away a piece of him.
You all, who knew him well, or only heard of him have over these last days assured me that this is true. For that, I thank you all. For me, this loss is most closley related to losing a parent. I have dedicated my original account to memorialize him. I hope that my doing so offends noone, as I know it would only have made him look at me and sheepishly, and humbly tell me he was honored to have even one of us care. I will tell you all with no doubt in my mind, these many pages of thoughts, memories and well wishing, that where ever Doug/Mal is floating watching from, He is honored, and he appreciated everything.
Never will there be another like him.
Thank you all, from the deepest part of my heart, to each and every person that has taken even a moment to read or take part in anything that was put out by Mal. Thank you all for taking time out of your real lives to honor a man only known as the old man that brought a hard to understand Lady Goddess into this community.
Know that he knows, sees, watches over all of us. We are all family as far as he was concerned. And I will continue with that attitude in game, in life, and one day, in death.
There is a sadness, yes. Of course. Doug told me when his mom passed away, the community here was his rock, his nurse, and his chef. Whether you knew him, or his problems, or his joys, Know that each of you, whether in the past, or in this thread, have honored him as he would never have been cocky enough to truly dream of.
As for his life, he was past 60 summers in age, and had lived a great and varied life. He was master of his wits, even unto the end. He never wasted a day. I remember sitting for weeks in my living room chatting as we flew killing things, before TAZ was even dreamed up, before Eris arrived. Back when he flew an undead bomber pilot named for his best friend, his dog, Sancho Panza. He never really got back intot he killing side of the game once DJC was gone. But in those days, he was a deadly fellow, I know who'd have guessed it? Freelancer will truly never be the same for me. Its kind of like flying without an arm or a wing. Just feels off. However, I will never fully leave, if for no other reason than because as I said.
All one need do is fly thru Baffin, and they ARE with Doug/Mal. He put his heart and soul into that system and was mighty proud of all the TAZ for having helped make it a reality.
One small request, I know He was good for forgetting....Any donations sent to the Temple should be arranged for ahead of time, Its been Mals curse to corrupt accounts for having too much money on one ship. Lets not do it again!