It has come to my attention, that sometimes I take this game a bit too close to myself.
I do not wish, in any way for it to be a reason to lose friends and angering those, who I have yet to get to know better.
I would like to apologize, truly, for what was said in Joe's faction's feedback thread, the fault was all mine, for I began, at some point, not only blame the [LN] for what was beyond their power to change, but also I blamed them, while they were clearly trying their best to prevent such an outcome.
Needless to say, I feel like I spat in Joe's face by doing so, and for that he will not forgive me for a long time and neither will some other people and I will not try to somehow sugarcoat it for myself either, what I said there was uncalled for, the information, which I picked up throughout the fight was incomplete, and in the end it seems I started to whine only because we had our butts handed to us.
However.
I also wish to remind you, that I try to make the LR- a better place, driving them into a suicidal battle was not my intention either, I knew for a long time now that I am not fit to lead a faction and this once more proves it. My ego trip about pvp has lasted long enough, the false image of myself as a worthy opponent has shattered, to where I am only a nuke spamming rookie who flies a VHF with a SN strapped on.
Then again...I have said this time and again, my ego does not allow me to change, so, at some point, we will end up again like this, where I will be writing a thread like this.
I should have ran
I should have scanned
I should have gotten the facts straight before posting
I should have calmed down before posting
[21:42:29] Joe (Jihad) says: I'm pretty mad your decided to sling mud at my faction after I ****ing got everything off you
[21:42:30] Joe (Jihad) says: That
[21:42:31] Joe (Jihad) says: in my mind
[21:42:42] Joe (Jihad) says: puts you in the "behaving like a total ****ing ****head" brigade
Even though I posted that negative feedback about the LN, what became of it wasn't my intention. Thing is, all the stuff that happened after was due to a lot of confusion on our part. I'm sure you've all been put in those situations, where you're in heated combat fighting against multiple opponents with more showing up constantly to the point where you don't know exactly what's going on. Even me and Sindy have different recollections of what happened. They're probably not as accurate as those of the people standing by watching.
Also, I'm not exactly the best when it comes to portraying my words in a way that other people can understand. Which has lead to confusion in the past before.
Sindy, the suicidal battle part wasn't your fault at all. We wanted to get on our rogues and do some pirating, but lets face it, all we would have done is sat their staring blankly at the trade lane, tell low levels to bugger off and kill the occasional trader who doesn't want to pay while all the big fish fly around us.
That's the problem, being a rogue is boring now that most of the trade doesn't move through Liberty like it used to. It's all out in the border worlds and stuff now. That leaves us with two other options, smuggling, which is boring because our smuggling routes are too safe and we never get caught, and killing stuff. Even if that's not what we intended to do today, I think both of us are so sick of the same old boring pirating routine where nothing happens that we just wanted to shoot some stuff.
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