Twilight Thoughts

[Jeremy Hunter]

Izzy woke up to find her face filled with tears. At first she was confused, but then, she realized that there had been no nightmare.
She had slept soundly.

Entry Five: The whereabouts of happiness

I'm not alone.

She's still with me.

And if she promised to stand with me, then I will not give up hope.



The nightmares that plagued me before and after my relationship with Ashley are gone again. It only took that one last kiss. My body just felt lighter, my head, felt clearer. My heart, less empty. I might not be the one closest to her, but our feelings are still the same.I might not be able to kiss her and stuff, but holding her...hearing her say that... I felt all that...pressure lift. And I haven't had a good nights sleep like that in awhile.
She still can't stay out of trouble. Seriously, I'm going to make James tie her down at their home, because, oh my god, how can she always seem to nearly get herself hurt, maimed, or killed? It astounds me to how much trouble this girl gets into. I'm sorry, I've only met one other person who was this much of a handful, and that was Sara, who's been gone for God knows how long.

Seriously, why do I always end up with the crazies?

I miss Jeremy. He at least is normal enough to have the crazy things happen with alot of distance between it all. Or Kai. Hell, the craziest thing that happened was the....

I think Soren inherited his father's gift. He nearly picked up his rattler while he was having his afternoon nap. It was shaking a bit...just enough to not be any natural cause. Sora...I know she has Jeremy's gift. The girl threw a small ball out of her crib once during the night. I fear someone will find out the kid's abilities...Alexis doesn't know, at least I don't think so. Even if she did, she couldn't do anything; the DNA of them and her would be too close to be a coincidence. Silence is our ally.

Rika is leaving more and more. I'm afraid she's somehow returning to wherever the Order is. She's playing with fire. She might get hurt. (Yes, I'm worried about you kiddo, despite the fact I want to throttle you so much at times). If she is, she won't tell me anything...and not many people can get her like that. I think Ellie or Seth is behind it. I know Ellie is alive; She was at Destiny a bit ago. Seth...he just doesn't do the dying thing. You could make his major organs hamburger, and he'd still pull through. He just doesn't die.
It could be Jeremy, but the recording that had Valentine's death...I got a glimpse of the main consoles. The Oathkeeper...only a miracle could have saved it. He's gone. But Ashley keeps reigniting my hope.

I guess fate's telling me, I need her, but not as a girlfriend. Maybe.

Why can't fate just be blunt and say "stop frakking Ashley already and start moving forward." Sheesh. You'd think fate woulda gotten that idea some time ago.

That's all I got for today...I feel better now. My head isn't as cluttered...but I fear I may need to write down some of what I had done during the 815-817 AS years. I'll have to threaten Rika with spinach though, or she might blab.

Yes honey, I'm going there. Some things are not meant for anyone to know.


Entry Five, closed.

Addendum:
That is cruel Izzy. -Rika

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May you ever walk in the Light, Shizune.