Avoiding PvP

[LancerZero]

Lately, I've noticed that I seem to be going out of the way to avoid PvP. Not quite sure why; I've trained with good pilots, and they've all told me I'm reasonably talented and just need a little polish. Only way to get that polish is by regularly engaging the enemy. I dunno...the few games I've played online, I've always tended towards cooperative play rather than versus. Maybe it's from always losing in the beginning...

I mean, it's gotten a little silly...and fear and paranoia are not generally considered desirable emotional by-products of a game. So! I need to learn to embrace PvP as an integral part of the RP gaming experience, because it is. Has anyone else ever had similar misgivings toward PvP? Subconscious, that is, but nonetheless potent to the point of occasionally threatening to ruin the game for you?

DISCLAIMER: this may or may not be meaningful, and it may or may turn out that I just had a stressful day and applied that stress toward something other than its true source.:PNot trying to be whiney or anything, them's the breaks, kid, and all that...just wondering who else has felt that way.

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