Just a reminder

[The Joker]

I'm gonna log in tomorrow to repay some debts and that's it. For the present time. Life... Life surely is funny sometimes:)

Some kind of red lump appeared on my skin. No vital organs near it but... it doesn't look good. The thing is, it didn't appear over night. I've been ignoring it for couple of years, discarding it as some skin reaction. It's nothing, I thought. Yes, that's stupid. Anyway, lately it started to change and I finally went to a doctor. Doctor didn't like what he saw. It reminds him on something... [plays dramatic music in background]... Something really bad. I won't even type the word.

Of course, that's just his hypothesis. Yay! There's no way to be sure. For now. I'm going it to have to do some damn biopsy this week or the next. It's a process where they take a portion of your skin and analyse it. After that, I'm gonna have to wait for 2 lovely weeks for the lab results. Those results will determine the next step.

All my everyday-life processes are currently halted. I'm already freaked out, that's for sure. I sleep and eat regularly but that grey cloud of What-IF is always above my head. I'm watching Star Trek TNG for whole day long just to keep myself distracted. I'm really not sure how to behave. Maybe I'm over-reacting but the doctor said what he said. I can't just pretend that he's incompetent.

I hate hospitals. Yes, everyone does but I really despise hospitals. I've never been sick. I'm 30 years old and I definitely didn't expect anything similar for at least 20 years or so:)I've told my girlfriend, sister and uncle about this predicament and that'll probably stay that way. My mom would die of worry is she finds out so I intend to keep it secret away from her. Also, see no need to advertise... IT... around to my friends or something. Looking for support? Screw that crap. What's the damn point. In the end, this could simply be nothing. A false alarm. Some skin rash. And I'd be back soon to make your imaginative lives miserable in this imaginative universe.

The point of this thread is not me informing you of my drama. You guys have no faces so that makes everything a whole lot easier. The point is...

Money, career, social status... Any dreams that you might have had which will never be realized... It doesn't really matter. It's all so irrelevant. If you're healthy, and the people around you, who matters to you, are healthy too -- BE F-ING HAPPY. Just be happy. All that will end one day so cherish the moments while they last. Maybe you think you already know this, like I thought did. But days stretching from one week to another, the stupid everyday routines makes one forget about what's really important.

I'll update this thread when I get my lab results. See you when I see you. Safe flights:)

P.S. To hell with all that "GL, I support you, man" posts. This is not about that. Think of this as a reminder. So get reminded:)Go do something nice for yourselves and/or your loved ones. Or go plant a tree or something. I was thinking of doing just that.

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