As most probably reported by the administration of our hospital in the Shibuya district headquarters, i indeed "left" the hospital for several hours.
I realize this act may seem rash, but medics do not know my limits. I do.
I will certainly not be the last one to have to deal with the feeling of failure and defeat. My way to exorcize it is to get back into a cockpit.
This is why i gave the medics the slip. I ran a patrol to hokkaido, where i met the - now Captain - Ishikawa.
Concerned, he convinced me to return, and so did i.
But i cannot stay here for how long the medical team wants to.
Thus, i am respectfully requesting to return to active duty at once.
Staying here would only undermine my moral, which is already low enough.