Hope is the worst of all evils, for it prolongs the torments of man.

[Narcotic]

Neural Net Log - Captain Edward Hope

Personal Entry:

Friday, the 1. February 820

"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering." That pretty much applies to our new guest aboard the Pandora. Natalie. An unpredictable 'thing' in my eyes. It's obvious that she's fighting with something deep inside her. A psychosis - maybe schizophrenia? Of course she must have had an awful time the last days - no question.

In spite of everything, I enjoyed the presence of her loveliness. I've got the feeling that her intellectual age is far above her natural maturity. When I've last talked with her about wisdom, she said: "Education is an admirable thing, but it is well to remember from time to time that nothing that is worth knowing can be taught." With these words she quit the conversation...

When we we're close to approach Planet Leeds, she explained me, that her mission failure and sharing classified informations with me, will cause heavy problems once she'll return. In this regard I believed her, since I've been in duty for the Armed Forces since half my life, where I've experienced such trouble, too. Somehow I felt responsible for her - and her young age... I couldn't let it happen.

Once we landed at Planet Leeds, I gave order to secretly scrap the destroyed Wraith and to fully remove the tracks. Afterwards I've scanned the official rheinland military pilot database, I had restricted access to. She spoke the truth. The last entry said her to be 'MIA'. Sure - they didn't wanted to be blamed for when the unregistered recon task failed. Clever. Now that she's thought to be dead - nobody would care if her 'vacations' on the Pandora get lengthen, until she completely recovered from her trauma.

Natalie was on cloud nine when I told her about it. As always, her childlike smile warmed my heart to a new. I put all the doubts aside and explained her that the Pandora will leave towards Liberty space with a full load of refugees from Leeds. At that point I haven't thought about the fact, her being a Rheinland Military soldier, that I'm helping to get access into New York.