Drunkish open heart

[Makc_RU]

Hi, community, i want to rumble a tad


- Long time ago, when i was in HS, our art teacher gave us an assignment to draw something. Well, I draw a Guillotine. I don't know why, i just did, and I spend quiet some time on that damn paper. I did all the shading and whatever, doing it with a pencil number 2. My fingers were all black from smearing the shadows and I was just working on it. The saddest part is, when I showed my work to her, she said: "Max, why did you copy it from a magazine?" That was a hit below the belt, i kind of succumbed inside of myself, u know. I had an inspiration to work and i did and the result was - I copied ! In reality it was just a device with all the light and shadows done. At the same time, a little earlier, she asked us to draw nature, so i drew a spring branch with leafs just popping out, i used color pencils and she put my work on display, when i really didn't spend a lot of time on it, just a sketch.

Well, you ask me, "Where are you going with this?"

Art is my battle arena. I do sports, i work out, i do crap, but i don't think u need to know about it, but when it comes to art, it is just popping out of me. It is like i am a shark, a carnivore of some kind ! I want to deliver and i get a kick out of it, when someone says: "Thanks, Max, u did a good job."

I do have a punching bag and i work out, but I don't get a kick like this from doing sports. When it comes to art, it is unexplainable, i really care about it. I can kick ass anytime I need to, but in the art field, i think i am still new. I never finished the art school, it just pops out of me. Sometimes i feel like Diogen.

During boxing, i keep calm and centered, but when it comes to art, i am so emotional and I have pictures flying in my head, like....woof---wooofff...wooofff...sketches and final products. It is kind of funny, but when someone orders from me and sends me the description of what they want, after i read it, i already have 5-10 versions of what he/she might like. It comes so fast to me, naturally.

When I look at Nomnom's work with pencil, i think :" Wow, great job." Although he can do better, but still, he does a great job with pencil.

Well, I don't know where i am going with this rant, just want to share this moment with you.

max.

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