Neural Net of Sakuma Hitomi - Part I

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Entry 2 - 31st of January, 814 AS

The mobilization order arrived today. Emperor Kogen and Shogun Sulu personally addressed the forces in a speech, promising a swift end to the war and that they would minimize the losses. The Emperor stressed the righteousness of his cause. I could not agree more.
I was nearly court marshalled for obeying the Chūsa's orders, and even my closest friends shook their heads over me. They got a point, although it hurts to admit it. Sure, the old ways are something to be hold sacred, but are they worth more than the life of a man? Is a Samurai really worth more when he is dead, than when he retreats, able to fight once more for his master? And, more importantly, why did I obey him?
Now, after weeks of reflection and speaking with persons I had to speak with (Hell, otosama even got a licensed psychiatrist from Manhattan to speak with me over the net) I believe it was this look in his eyes. The man had given up. He had lost so many men, seen so much, that he just couldn't take it anymore.
I don't believe it was luck that got me out of the court marshall, though. I was told that the final decision was made on the assumption that the Chūsa was already dead and my sword merely made the difference between tradition and suicide. Otosama must have made quite a lot of calls, trying to get his little girl out of this.

In any way, I have to admit that my new position is interesting. Instead of getting kicked out of the Navy, I get to serve as Akagi's second comms officer.
The Assault on Bretonia is merely a matter of days now. Akagi and her escort stayed back in the recent time, now being moved to the front line at the gate to Tau-31. I am not really sure how this will turn out. Bretonia will fight fiercely. And I don't want to kill another man.

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