Mind Corruption

[Lennox]

18th of March 819 A.S.: the Omicrons; problems
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"06:03: Well...I'm back where I started. Apparently the others don't think like me, or even similar. They have their own way of handling things and when I mentioned my way of thinking it all went down hill. I'm not exactly sure what reason there was for them to make such a big deal out of it, but they even requested a change of roster in our squadron...concerning me..."

07:21: "I've been going about this many times now, trying to figure out what was wrong that evening. I only started to discuss how alcohol is surely not a way to deal with one's sorrow and pain, since in my opinion it would only make it worse. Seems like the fact that I didn't drink myself made the situation all the worse. Since I'm still addicted to cardamine the processing of alcohol would probably be quite painful and hard to deal with...and the Order might find out after all and kick me out. They didn't want to hear any of it...called be a stuck-up man who's unable to have some fun once in a while...while I -was- having fun to begin with."

09:43: "Requested a day off to think about this so that hopefully I can come up with something to compensate. It's important that I keep going no matter what. I've learned that by now. If it means that other people misjudge me or have prejudices, then so be it. It's not about what others think, but what I can make of this life...and I'm going to aim high...very high."

11:45: "The operations in Kusari are going to kick in soon. While it's been a while since I was appointed for service there, it's going to be a good distraction from everything else. That said, the importance of those missions are what can be considered beyond very high. I won't fail anyone this time and I'm going to bring everyone back alive as well. That's my goal for now..."