Mind Corruption

[Lennox]

31st of December 819 A.S.: the Omicrons; unexpected turn
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10:00: "I've made up my mind. There's nothing more I could do in the Order, not in my present state. Not even sure if I'll ever get back to them again. Regardless, I need time to look after myself. The last months have been hard on me, as mentioned in the previous logs. I thought my position as Overwatch would make everything somewhat better. Yet the only thing it did was to isolate me further from others. A lot of people depending on me and all that jazz...I just couldn't bear with it."

13:32: "Didn't eat. Didn't feel like it. I've set my mind to a place away from the Omicrons. Everything about me cringes as soon as I meet other people, let alone talking with them. Since...her death I've never felt as down as now...something that I need to change. I'll keep trying. But with the cardamine nagging on me as well as giving me visions I can't explain, that'll be quite hard..."

15:39: "Went to Gran Canaria to get away from that green sight of a mess. It's quite nice around here. Reminds me of when I first met [RETRACTED]. Quite odd circumstances, since it was a similar type of vision that connected our 'fates'. And here I am wishing for her to be by my side, listening to her rambling about the bigger picture compared to individual feelings." A weak chuckle can be heard. "Though...it would contradict with what happened then..."

17:42: "Rented a room...quite spacious with looks on the surrounding area. Feel like staying here for quite a while, though, I have no idea when the visions will catch up again. Should I be on edge about it? Or should I just turn off every sense for paranoia at this time? Truth is, I don't know what it'll be when that happens..."