A dissimilar Journal

[SeaFalcon]

Entry: . 001

Date: 31 05 823

User: .. Miri Keating
Pass: .. *****

Subject: From Leeds up to the present...

My life started off in the mess around Leeds and I've seen things no one would ever have wanted to witness. The nightmares still haunt me but at least I managed to break free from this mayhem and was lucky enough to waste my money on a smuggler who took me and a few other desperate people from the surface. We were dropped off on New London where I received my refugee status. Ever since I arrived I checked the long lists of missing people, as I wanted to find out where my parents were. They left a year before me but I didn't hear from them ever since.

Life became a bit brighter when I met this Aiden McFarlane, another refugee who had to request new identity papers as well. We heard that we'd be shipped off to one of the new refugee complexes on Sprague in Omega-3. Me and Aiden made a deal and requested that we'd be given the same housing, an apartment for the two of us. We knew it would be tiny but at least we'd have more money at the end of each month. Being this close to him created a bond as we shared our stories and dreamed about having a better future.

Aiden showed his interest in me and I felt equally attracted to him. The time we spent together in the small apartment as nice and I enjoyed every second of it. However it was time to get to work and we both had been job hunting for quite a while. We shared a similar background as we had both been pilots for different Bretonian corporations. He soon found a job with this company called ‘Ajax Solutions’ and was given the opportunity to buy out his ship once he earned enough.

For me it was a bit more difficult to find a proper job but I met someone who sponsored me a ship. With that I did some Freelancer work before I noticed Auxesia, a para-military like group. Their goals were unique as they were focused on Research development and fighting these Aliens in the edge worlds. It felt special and the pay seemed to be worth it so I signed up and got accepted fairly swiftly as well. What I didn’t foresee was that this would consume a lot of time and that meant that me and Aiden rarely got to see each other.

We did meet whenever we could and I managed to surprise him at home a few times by showing up unannounced. Again, being with him was great and helped me forget about all the things that had happened. He promised he would work hard to get his own ship which would mean he’d be able to fly with him to wherever we’d want to go. Everything went as we had planned and we managed to spend more time together, going to systems we had never seen before but first foremost we were able to enjoy each other.

Thing however changed when I got to know more of the people within Auxesia. A guy named Stacker who belongs to the high command had confessed that he had been involved in crimes against humanity, to be more specific, he claimed that he had a part in killing hundreds if not thousands of refugees that had been picked up from planet Leeds, my home. These people were used as guinea pigs for whatever sick experiments they did to them. Hearing him talk like that almost had me spill my lunch, considering that my parents might as well have been amongst those that had been led to their deaths.

This revelation made it difficult for me to move on but I have managed thus far even when it had cost me a grave sacrifice. I couldn’t get myself to act normal around Aiden anymore, I felt a lump in my throat whenever I was about to go and see him. Being with him was still nice but having to keep this quiet for him was hurting me, so much even that I can’t keep this up and I’ve told him move on without me. I told him it was just me, that I had lost feelings for him and that it would be better if we stopped seeing each other. He did send a few messages telling me he wanted to talk but so far I managed to ignore them. I just hope he’ll be alright and able to move on…