Mind Corruption

[Lennox]

21st of June 820 A.S.: Omicrons; remorse
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07:01: "It's been so long, too long... I've nearly lost all track of time. Getting back into the Omicrons without steady cardamine supply proved to be a foolish endeavor. What was I thinking... no, I can't even think. The withdrawal makes it impossible. I feel like death, and the more time passes, the more I feel the urge to shoot myself in the head. It's unbearable... and they... they're all looking at me as if I'm some sort of monster. All of them... am I not human anymore? What happened... why is th-" The recording abruptly ends.

10:23: "Red. Lights. Red... lights? Those sounds. Gunfire. Screams. Curiosity... too great. Using combat suit. Order origin, high tech. Exoskeleton, powered fiber... got to kill... intruders? Cardamine possibly among them, can't take chances..."

13:49: "Silence... finally. Monsters are dead, along with intruders. Heh, sliced them up good... secondary lifeforms from abdominal areas exposed... and killed as well. Minimal survivors. Who were the real monsters?! Those stares... no more. Silence, peace. But no cardamine! Seems like... carving it out from the remains... last option..? No, unsure where to look... got to consult an expert..."

14:23: "Heheh. Found one, but with the same face, same expression. Terrified to see me... killed him as well. Can't... bare their stares, those monsters. Looked through medical area... to no avail. Must keep cardamine separately, secured. Have to find it!"

19:31: "I... can't believe it. Everything in my head cleared up. The cardamine saved me again, eh? No! What have I done?!" The voice is somewhat erratic in somewhat of a state of panic. "To what lengths... did I have to go to get this? Why... did I kill everybody? Is that what withdrawal does to me? Makes me a monster? Whole... families dead. I killed them in cold blood! What the hell is happening?! Everyone... how could this happen..? Blood everywhere... incubi, Wild... why, why?! If anyone listens to this... I'm.. so sorry. No... this won't suffice. I've got to take measures to prevent this from happening again... nobody will mi-" The recording abruptly ends again.