Mind Corruption

[Lennox]

09th of August 820 A.S.: Omicrons; vague terms
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04:07: "I'm so tired, I don't know where to begin. This whole idea about returning to the Omicrons might have sealed my fate... I have no idea how to get out of this. The images just keep on coming... and it's not just memories either. The daily Nomad attacks...people being brought onto the station for treatment, if not already dead. I'm still being looked at with suspicion... at least by most who've seen me around for some time now. They noticed the difference... frowned upon seeing me. I'm that one outsider whom nobody wants to have anything to do with. Can't really blame them, though... after what happened on the Freeport." A sigh can be heard. "I hope I'll be able to scrounge up some money today... so that I can finally get something to eat. In addition... I need to keep constant tabs on my cardamine supply... I'd rather die than go on a rampage again."

06:49: "Didn't... manage to get either food or money... the only thing I've got left is that Eagle. Seems like I'm gonna slowly pick it apart, selling off not too essential stuff. I hope it'll work..."

07:56: "Yes. Yes! Finally some positive news. There were indeed people who were interested in buying spare parts from me. Stated my situation and, to add to my luck, they were rather wealthy traders. I told them about my situation, that I had no way of sustaining aboard the station. They gave me more than they needed to... and here I thought they had all written me off as a stranger or monster. It feels so good to finally have a full stomach again... makes me wonder about the way I treated food before. Never again... it was decent food as well. Hell... I feel like I'll just be able to make it through now, however much time I need."

11:37: "They... tried to steal from me. Must've seen me when I exchanged those parts for money. I... overreacted, again. They were desperate as well... but I told them that they wouldn't get anything from me. They... attacked me and I... broke several of their bones in return. Even more for the medical station in this place... but at least they'll be good there... right?"

14:01: "Managed to get extra supply of cardamine as well. The day couldn't get any better. Though... they did want a lot of money for it, I can finally relax a little bit. Wait, what am I talking about? Relax? Tch... am I subject to this foolish thought again? Screw it... no relaxing until I've made it somewhere. I won't have, nothing will make me!"

18:59: "I'm slowly starting to believe that things are much better than they seemed this morning. I'll continue to sell of parts for food and cardamine, that way I'll be fine for some time. Who thought that someone like me would get a second change..? Still... no reason to celebrate... at all. I'm still nowhere near getting into a better state... need a stable income for that first. Though... when thinking about it, why am I still alive anyway? They should live instead of me... but, I suppose it's nothing I can change anymore. It's still... haunting me... and probably will for the rest of my life..."