So, basically, what you're saying after having read that is:
'I am incapable of RPing well enough or of communicating well enough with others who play here for an official faction to permit me to use a capital ship.'
Is it?
In the event that I'm wrong, I suspect it's down to you not reading the posts properly. The majority of the 'restrict capital ships' posts are not saying 'no indie capital ships'.
ETA: the tone of the post in no way reflects my current mood. Just seeking to get a message across.