Defending the Delta

[Sombs]

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Log - Ezrael Vertiga

Still not all of it. I think I need to talk about one more thing, something that really... I don't know, bugs me.

The more time I spend with Maren, be it just being with her on the Hoffnungsschimmer or having her at my side at our adventures, I feel like I should give in. Like, she really loves me, and I really love her, but we're really different. I know she doesn't like Curacao, and she knows I hate Canaria for it's giant insects. Like, there are no giant insects on Curacao. The weather control systems wouldn't allow that. It's just a few imported animal races, some maritime wildlife in the filtered ocean areas. But no fucking giant moths like on Canaria. We have Chiwis and some ocelote-like felines. Birds and all that. That's enough. Why would she want to live on a planet with insects!?

Anyway, that's not the point I wanted to make. It's more like she's really, really trying to open herself to the Curacaoan lifestyle, with everything that that may includes. There was that one evening where I wanted to talk with Maren. I really was ready to tell her to stop. I didn't want her to do the threesome thing we talked about. But, boom. She came back from a little tour through the Omegas and guess who she picked up. Sombra. Sombra had asked her if she could bring her to the Hoffnungsschimmer, as she knew I wanted to have her here for something, and she knew exactly for what, and was willing to do it. I really felt like an idiot when I saw them. Sombra really makes things a bit more complicated, as she is very easy to offend or to jar.

So Sombra stayed. I wasn't able anymore to tell Maren what I initially wanted to tell her. Stupid me...

What happened next? Sombra and Maren tried some things out, being intimate with each other, and Maren liked it. She even became friends with Sombs. They had a day on Canaria together, while I was on the ship, testing the new cloak. They came back in the evening, and then the three of us did it. They really put thought into the scenario, dressing up nicely, putting on some make-up. Sombra knew from the past all too well what I like. It was weird, but okay at first. Then, when Sombra wanted me to do her, Maren pushed her away, making a clear statement, and it ruined the mood. In the morning of the same day, we already had a weird situation, where I catched the two of them in flagranti, and uhm. Maren had a neuropathic seizure. Urgh. Really, the recent days were weird. I never really should have allowed that to happen in first place.

Sombra surely will leave in a few hours or tomorrow. Poor girl. I bet she had better imaginations of what would happen here.

I really don't know where this all will lead to. I just hope Maren is happy or will become happy again. It's really about time to settle down with her and start a family instead of me trying to keep up the curacaoan lifestyle. She really has earned it, with her fanatic loyalty to me.

Then again, there is still the Apahanta out there. I can't just give it up. Not after investing three billion credits into it...

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