I assume that at some point in your life, you've had a moment that either mentally or literally brought you to your knees. Maybe the death of a pet, a friend, a family member...or maybe something else entirely.
Whatever it was for you, in your own way, I'm sure you know the feeling I'm trying to describe. The moment a collection of spoken words said by another, sends you into a state of shock that forces your entire world to melt away.
...& if you happen to be one of those that has yet to experience it yourself, give it time...One day, you will. I promise.
Please trust me on this: When it happens to you,
It.Will.Suck.
For me, this time, it was like being hit in the solar plexus & having the wind knocked out of my lungs. It froze me in place, paralyzed me by fear, while at the same time, filled me with such an intense rage, that I felt almost at peace & surprisingly clear-headed.
It was...uncomfortable.
I was in my rented quarters on Sandur Station, & someone from the Gaian Guard finally got back to me yesterday on the comm I left open, and implied that they know my fathers name...at least, that's how it seemed to me...& that's the moment when I went tharn.
So, there I was, afterwards, in a perfect state of perfect disturbed Zen, that I packed up my things & set my way back to Torshavn.
While traveling in space, two ancient wise sayings kept ringing in my head:
"Be careful what you wish for, lest it be granted" and, "If all of your wishes were granted, many of your dreams would be destroyed"
...And as if on cue, proving that life just likes to f*** with me, I received a comm on the same channel. It was some guy not of the Guard, but claimed to know that guy that originally sent me on this wild goose chase, and he offered to buy me a beer.
I suppose this is what I get for buying the ticket & taking the ride.
& yeah, at this point, I could use a drink or few.
