The Pain of Doing What Is Right

[Doc Holliday]

A couple of people on this server know about this but most of you don't. I'm very private about my personal life but if my actions and this post saves a life then it's worth it.
I love my son. I love him more than words so when I had to bring him to a mental hospital after he again attempted suicide, it tore me apart. Even this morning, the morning after, I'm still trying to keep myself together. Talking to him briefly on the phone did help somewhat.

To make his history short, he suffers from ADHD, OCD and is a high functioning autistic. He also can't control his emotions as I was reminded two days ago. A recent break-up with his ex has been impossible for him to take. They were together for over 5 years and were engaged. Basically, she made him break it off so that "she wouldn't have to live with the guilt." Cheap yes but being how shallow she is, I'm glad it's over. She's been rubbing her new relationship in his face which set him off. There's a lot more to what she's doing but it's not about her anymore.

So after he went off, my wife and I took our son to get some help. I'm very lucky to have been married to such a strong woman for so long now. She's taking it well whereas I'm trying to keep myself together. I know I did the right thing by checking him in. As a military man, I preach to do what's right, even if it hurts and let me tell you, doing the right thing is kicking my ass right now.
So please, if you, a friend, one of your children or a significant other needs psychiatric help, get it for them. I wouldn't wish this on anyone. I'm trying not to think what I would be like right now if he had succeeded in killing himself.

I'll still be here in server as RP and writing are things that keep my mind busy and not focussing on recent events. Thanks for listening.

-John

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