Technocracy of Auxo - Feedback

[Enkidu]

Now I'm no longer starving to death and have a clear head, I'd like to apologise for being a prat. I'm not enough of a prat to actually vandalise your ships but I was enough prat to fake it to see you sweat. I projected my current physical and emotional health problems on the situation, which was highly unproductive.


I'm clearheaded and looking after my body and soul again, gave the situation a rethink. I've come to the conclusion that, whilst I wasn't roleplaying Nesrin to the best of her abillities, I had logged in primarily to RP with you and help you out with patrolling the system as a path to RPing the character back into Auxesia, potentially. I doubt that's going to be on the table now; I showed my unhealthy side off with all flags flying colours like I'm Nelson at Trafalgar. I'm going to apologise for inflicting you with my psychosis and ruining your fun. That's on me. As was nearly doing something bannable. Contemplating switching your shared gunboat onto a shared ALG account that Karst had forgotten I had access to, then camera-shipping it as it didn't appear to be shiplocked, then donating the revenue to the Order| bank (I've deleted my access to both the gunboat and the transport shared), is the definition of moronic problem childishness. Equally annoying is that I ruined any chance of having a relatively nice game of CK2 with an interesting person I'd just met. Drat, and double drat. I have no-one but myself to blame, which I did, excessively, before realising two and a half weeks on a starvation diet is a great way to die. Anorexia makes devils of us.


I realise why I got mad, and that there was some sane reasons for why I lost it, despite the fact that I lost it was totally insane. Bear with me.


- The AI was totally in their rights to shoot me. They shot at me without any prefacing RP and took me down to half hull, then didn't stop firing. I had to steer out of the angle of the killshot, interrupting the RP I was attempting to type to him. I received no PM that he was testing his weapons, or anything like that. I do appreciate the quirkiness of the situation, but it's a bit absurd. Nesrin had been RP'd as essentially a representative for Gammu with the blessing of two former AI official factions. It's a bit like if Angela Corino was potshotted by a Nomad cruiser without any context, then the Church of Sirius came along and shot at her when she didn't stop shooting back. It's a bit 'eh'. Especially as I logged under the pretext of wanting to participate in the RP that both groups seemed to be there for. Suddenly I was the bad guy? Eh?

- So I fired back. I didn't necessarily expect to kill the cruiser; it was what Nesrin would have done under the circumstances.

- You told me to stop firing, but I didn't have any indicator that he stopped firing. I did halt movement again and he shot at me again. I assumed at the time you were screwing with me because I was in the discord with you.


- You shot at me so I turned back and fired on you, fired a single nova into the Reaper VHF's shield to get the message across, then shield ran, expecting you'd cease fire as I wasn't going after the cruiser. When I realised you were genuinely trying to kill the character I wondered if I could just go off seperately and RP with the cruiser. You kicked me out of group so I started to RP with the cruiser and grouped up with it, sat next to it, adopted a non-threatening stance. I was mid-line through when both you guys shot me and the cruiser without any further notice.

Throughout the entire situation all I wanted too do was ensure my ship wasn't getting shot at so I could RP with the two factions my character has strong RP reasons to be close to. That's my genuine understanding of the situation. I thought you were trolling me. I guess you wern't necessarily trying to, but you guys have probably a greater understanding of Nesrin's character than anybody else. You did kinda' derp that one up, both in communication of what your InRp and Oorp intentions were.

I assumed you were trying to troll, Nyx, Ven. Decided to screw with you in return, which wasn't the smart way of doing it.

I'm not in any way trying to legitimise my response, which was obscene. The whole situation probably wouldn't have happened if anything happened slightly differently.

Edit: I realise that this is a bit soon, and you might still be mad at me and not respond. Totally fine; I did screw up and I don't deserve answers from you, even if the situation was a basket of cats.

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