Lifespan Deathwatch

[Damien McEwan]

"I've lost it." Nivek mumbled quietly. "I've gone completely insane."

In his mind, he asked himself: 'What other explanation could there possibly be?'

He replayed the day over and over again in his mind, and none of it makes any logical sense.

'She tells me a story about a woman that almost burns to death in a traffic accident, and a year to the day, that same woman still burns to death?'

'Her weird deal about getting me to pick numbers and running all over the arts district?
66, 3, 7?'

'She drags me onto a train from platform 66, we ride 3 stops, and wait 7 minutes in a coffee shop for a friend of hers who then, just so happens to walk in the door??'

'No. F**k that. I'm being played. It's all some elaborate long con or something.'

His heart jumps into the internal monologue and issues a challenge to his logic:

To what end? You were the one that spotted the white rabbit. You were the one to drag her into the coffee shop. You were the one who picked the numbers.

Logic was forced to admit that since it was a murder-suicide, a long con was most definitely a longshot.

His heart continued: Remember how it felt? Everything was perfect the moment you walked in the door with her...How do we explain that?

Logic started to say something, but backed down.

'What about the night I met her?' Nivek asked himself. 'She did say she was going to kill me last.'

That's the moment you fell in love with her though. His heart said.

Besides, you know she was joking. Logic agreed.

'Maybe deep down I want to die, and just took it as a joke?' Nivek hypothesized.

Nope. Logic has a point, said Nivek's survival instinct. I can promise you that we don't want to die...not even a little.

Without another word, Survival Instinct went back down to where it came from & continued to keep a very suspicious eye on Jaina.

You can't leave her. his heart volunteered. Until the day you actually die, you'll never forgive yourself if you do.

Logic chimed back in: Y'know, if she loves us back as Heart believes, then she can let us go for a little while to figure things out, yeah?

We can live with that! Survival Instinct yelled up from deep within the psyche.

'Looks like it's two vs. one.' Nivek said to himself.




Heart flipped the finger on both hands, and stomped off to go chill out.

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