The Dark Journal

[Nyctophilia]

Date -13.08.825 A.S.
Location - Freeport 11
Log Author - "Nyctophilia"

Oh my god... What... What happened yesterday? I'm still having a headache... I can't quite wrap my head around it, was it a dream? Or a reality? I... I don't know... The impression was like it happened in reality... I... I-I-I've met with Azhi and there was a Nomad Node which didn't shot me for some reason. It... talked to me. It... Showed me something?

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[12.08.2018 20:09:58] Cloaking device off
[12.08.2018 20:10:14] Nyctophilia: Thought they were bigger.
[12.08.2018 20:10:41] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Odd. If I didn't know better, I'd say you were following me, dear.
[12.08.2018 20:10:50] Nyctophilia: Why?
[12.08.2018 20:11:15] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: It's just a very odd coincidence, in such a large universe. And knowing your propensities, oh dear.
[12.08.2018 20:11:17] Nyctophilia: Wow, easy there.
[12.08.2018 20:11:57] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Don't fear and you won't be feared. Don't hate and you won't be hated.
[12.08.2018 20:12:07] Nyctophilia: Is this... thing going do attack me any second now?
[12.08.2018 20:12:18] Nyctophilia: I don't have any reasons to hate it... Until it hates me.
[12.08.2018 20:12:29] Vagrant.Melia: "Such haste to conclusion. Typical."
[12.08.2018 20:12:37] Nyctophilia: But... This scale makes me a bit nervous.
[12.08.2018 20:13:37] Nyctophilia: I'd prefer to keep distance. What if it bites?
[12.08.2018 20:13:46] Nyctophilia: I am certain that it does.
[12.08.2018 20:13:56] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Look beyond the first impressions, free of prejudice. Maybe you'll see something you like.
[12.08.2018 20:15:13] Nyctophilia: Well... Can't say for certain. If I'd knew that this thing wouldn't hurt me for certain, I'd feel quite comfortable.
[12.08.2018 20:15:24] Nyctophilia: But... I don't know it.
[12.08.2018 20:15:27] Nyctophilia: Can't trust it.
[12.08.2018 20:15:48] Nyctophilia: Not right away.
[12.08.2018 20:16:03] Vagrant.Melia: "Query. Is presumption all the dark one is capable of?"
[12.08.2018 20:16:39] Nyctophilia: Curious why you don't attack me right away.
[12.08.2018 20:17:15] Nyctophilia: Generaly everyone of your kind I've met thus far were extremely agressive.
[12.08.2018 20:17:15] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Curious why you presumed you should be attacked straight away? Who put -that- thought in your head?
[12.08.2018 20:17:29] Nyctophilia: None did. My experience.
[12.08.2018 20:18:17] Nyctophilia: You go in Omicrons, and as far as you enjoy the nice view, you also anticipate a threat.
[12.08.2018 20:19:03] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: You put a hand in the mouth of a shark; you should anticipate it getting bitten off.
[12.08.2018 20:19:10] Nyctophilia: Yep.
[12.08.2018 20:20:02] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: There's a reason for everything. Fear too, sometimes is justified. But sometimes, it's not.
[12.08.2018 20:20:33] Nyctophilia: Yeah, but I'm not just afraid of this thing, Rather concerned about it.
[12.08.2018 20:21:19] Nyctophilia: And it's justified.
[12.08.2018 20:21:57] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: So you say. But the fact you have not yet left suggests there is much more beneath that ugly layer of fear and doubt.
[12.08.2018 20:21:59] Nyctophilia: Like, I don't know whom you have do be if you didn't saw them assaulting multiple ships.
[12.08.2018 20:22:26] Nyctophilia: Yeah. Beneath that lies a bit of curiosity. And it also scares me.
[12.08.2018 20:22:57] Vagrant.Melia: "Perhaps it is merely afraid of that which it does not know."
[12.08.2018 20:23:59] Nyctophilia: The strongest and oldest emotion of the mankind is fear. And the strongest and oldest kind of fear is the fear of the unknown.
[12.08.2018 20:24:18] Nyctophilia: Do I love this quote.
[12.08.2018 20:24:34] Vagrant.Melia: "Amusement."
[12.08.2018 20:24:35] Nyctophilia: Some overcome this fear and transform it into curiosity.
[12.08.2018 20:24:58] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: And do you seek to transform it?
[12.08.2018 20:25:07] Nyctophilia: In some situations.
[12.08.2018 20:25:45] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Well that's hardly appropriate. You can't just have half of a transformation and call it a day.
[12.08.2018 20:26:08] Vagrant.Melia: "If we had sought to purge, we would not have sought toleration."
[12.08.2018 20:27:07] Nyctophilia: It's situational, afterall.
[12.08.2018 20:28:12] Nyctophilia: However... I find a mixed feeling of feer and curiosity in this thing, and it confuses me.
[12.08.2018 20:28:53] Nyctophilia: Who are they and most importantly - why?
[12.08.2018 20:29:43] Nyctophilia: This is what curious to me and at the same time, the possible answers to these questions make me afraid of them.
[12.08.2018 20:30:05] Nyctophilia: And at some point I stop guessing.
[12.08.2018 20:30:10] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: They are what they are. Mankind has fear of dark. They have love of light. Mankind has discord. They have harmony.
[12.08.2018 20:30:36] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Answers lead only to more questions. If you truly want to know; Then you'll have to wonder for all time.
[12.08.2018 20:30:56] Nyctophilia: True.
[12.08.2018 20:32:00] Nyctophilia: And there is still one question. There are ones that attack us blindly. And this one... Is just observing me.
[12.08.2018 20:32:26] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: You say blindly. I say with great foresight.
[12.08.2018 20:32:41] Vagrant.Melia: "Transgression meets punishment."
[12.08.2018 20:33:19] Nyctophilia: So... They have a reason?
[12.08.2018 20:33:36] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Everything does. Except the few things that don't.
[12.08.2018 20:35:56] Nyctophilia: You said that they're fighting against the dark?
[12.08.2018 20:36:12] Nyctophilia: How come they see us as the dark?
[12.08.2018 20:36:47] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: What is that behind your eyes? Where you supposedly reside? It looks very black and colorless even though you can't see it.
[12.08.2018 20:37:14] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Darkness and unknowing of the self. They have only the Light, and full understanding of the self.
[12.08.2018 20:37:44] Vagrant.Melia: "Not only of self. Of kin, of bretheren."
[12.08.2018 20:38:24] Nyctophilia: So they are basically fighting the chaos?
[12.08.2018 20:38:50] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Light can only banish darkness with its presence. Order can only overcome chaos. It is what it is.
[12.08.2018 20:38:59] Nyctophilia: An irony.
[12.08.2018 20:39:18] Nyctophilia: Think you are aware what "Nyctophilia" means.
[12.08.2018 20:39:34] Nyctophilia: Though I can't find myself matching any of this.
[12.08.2018 20:40:02] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Names are pointless to them. Actions and intent speak more loudly.
[12.08.2018 20:41:37] Nyctophilia: Even if I'm just a freak that loves hiding in the dark and stalking on people?
[12.08.2018 20:42:42] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [chuckles] The Light isn't a literal flashlight shining in your face, dear. This is where language fails us.
[12.08.2018 20:42:56] Nyctophilia: Figures.
[12.08.2018 20:43:30] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: But understanding can still be conveyed, even in its absence. If you are open to it.
[12.08.2018 20:44:06] Nyctophilia: One thing I'm also concerned about. It's not communicating not through the comms, but what I may understand as telepathy.
[12.08.2018 20:44:12] Nyctophilia: Can it hijack my brain?
[12.08.2018 20:44:16] Vagrant.Melia: "Does it seek to know, or is it content with its frail understanding?"
[12.08.2018 20:44:49] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Are you so sure it is your own as it is? Be rid of that fear, what you are about to see can only liberate you.
[12.08.2018 20:45:19] Nyctophilia: I am... Not sure that I am afraid, rather concerned.
[12.08.2018 20:46:00] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [laughs] Hiding fear by giving another name? Pointless. Face it and reject it, and you will have understanding.
[12.08.2018 20:46:24] Nyctophilia: I mean, you have to understand me, I've never met this thing that close and to not get shot at.
[12.08.2018 20:46:46] Nyctophilia: And this is the first time I hear it's voice.
[12.08.2018 20:46:52] Nyctophilia: Heard, even.
[12.08.2018 20:47:26] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: First time, last time, they are one and the same. What is important is that its happening. An opportunity is presented to: you.
[12.08.2018 20:47:34] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: It may not be presented again.
[12.08.2018 20:48:09] Nyctophilia: Yeah, I am certainly amazed.
[12.08.2018 20:49:11] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Had its intent been hostile, it would have asked for no premission. Yet there it stands in front of you, ready to provide as soon as you say the word.
[12.08.2018 20:49:14] Nyctophilia: What... is it trying to do?
[12.08.2018 20:49:30] Nyctophilia: To do what?
[12.08.2018 20:49:40] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Convey meaning. Offer knowledge. Show the path to liberation.
[12.08.2018 20:50:22] Nyctophilia: I am... Not certain. Can it show me itself?
[12.08.2018 20:50:32] Nyctophilia: Like... I don't know what it is.
[12.08.2018 20:50:45] Nyctophilia: Or who it is.
[12.08.2018 20:50:58] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: -That- is exactly what I mean.
[12.08.2018 20:51:15] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: You can get no more from me. Only from the Light.
[12.08.2018 20:51:56] Nyctophilia: It's a bit... Uncomfortable, I never asked anything from an alien lifeform, but...
[12.08.2018 20:52:01] Nyctophilia: Can you show me yourself?
[12.08.2018 20:52:06] Nyctophilia: Please?
[12.08.2018 20:53:17] Nyctophilia: Uhm...
[12.08.2018 20:53:59] Nyctophilia: Did I asked anything wrong?
[12.08.2018 20:54:06] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Patience.
[12.08.2018 20:54:10] Vagrant.Melia: "The Shallow Void is a void of movement. It is not wise to remain in such a vulnerable position, for such an act."
[12.08.2018 20:56:07] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Will you accompany us to a safer spot?
[12.08.2018 20:56:13] Nyctophilia: Of course.
[12.08.2018 20:56:26] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Forward.

*The moment we've encountered a stationary Osiris monitoring a Jump Hole in Omicron Beta*

[12.08.2018 21:03:26] Nyctophilia: Typical.
[12.08.2018 21:03:35] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [chuckles]
[12.08.2018 21:03:50] Nyctophilia: The Order monitoring every corner in the Omicrons.
[12.08.2018 21:04:27] Vagrant.Melia: "We will be rid of the Banishers. We only need to proceed past them."
[12.08.2018 21:04:27] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: They've always been the controlling sort. What little good it did them.
[12.08.2018 21:10:56] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: We are almost there.
[12.08.2018 21:11:05] Nyctophilia: Oh?
[12.08.2018 21:11:19] Nyctophilia: We're in Minor. I have only several guesses.
[12.08.2018 21:11:31] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Yes. Few frequent these graveyards, we will be safe here.
[12.08.2018 21:12:16] Nyctophilia: Can't call it safe... Both the Core and the Order might catch us here.
[12.08.2018 21:12:37] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: The mists hide many things. They will hide us, as well.
[12.08.2018 21:12:47] Nyctophilia: Hm.
[12.08.2018 21:13:09] Vagrant.Melia: "Their interference would be their end."
[12.08.2018 21:13:22] Nyctophilia: And this should be a local relic, Battleship Isis?
[12.08.2018 21:13:43] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: A very evocative image, don't you think?
[12.08.2018 21:14:13] Nyctophilia: Yeah. Wasn't here when the assault happened, but heard that all of the sides were involved.
[12.08.2018 21:14:39] Nyctophilia: Well, take two, I guess.
[12.08.2018 21:14:56] Nyctophilia: Can you, please, show me what or who you are?
[12.08.2018 21:16:01] Vagrant.Melia: *It begins to reach out with its presence, beyond its form and towards the present minds.*
[12.08.2018 21:16:40] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [Being already accustomed, he easily merges with the local consciousness.]
[12.08.2018 21:16:41] Nyctophilia: *She feels something is clouding around her head*
[12.08.2018 21:17:38] Nyctophilia: *She begins to breathe heavily, as she slowly passes out and falls into the seat.*
[12.08.2018 21:17:44] Vagrant.Melia: *It begins to surround the perceptions of the pilot. It was indeed clouding the edges of her mind.*
[12.08.2018 21:18:25] Nyctophilia: *Her eyes are closed and her body is completely numb.*
[12.08.2018 21:18:45] Vagrant.Melia: *The more relaxed and accepting her mind became, the more metaphorical ground it could gain.*
[12.08.2018 21:19:16] Vagrant.Melia: *Yet it remained moderated, careful in its approach, not pressing harder than it needed.*
[12.08.2018 21:19:42] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [As a conjoined entity, the serpent incubus worked alongside Melia, flowing as part of her consciousness.]
[12.08.2018 21:19:42] Nyctophilia: *Urgh... Ugh... The head...*
[12.08.2018 21:20:26] Vagrant.Melia: *With the pilot's perceptions completely in check, it could now proceed to establish the mindscape.*
[12.08.2018 21:20:49] Nyctophilia: "Wha... What is... Where? What?"
[12.08.2018 21:21:50] Vagrant.Melia: *It was a rather devoid place, devoid of any definitively corporeal constructs. There was, however, a dim light pervading.*
[12.08.2018 21:22:17] Nyctophilia: "The... Light?"
[12.08.2018 21:22:21] Nyctophilia: "Am I dead?'
[12.08.2018 21:22:42] Vagrant.Melia: *As time passed it steadily increased in brightness, coming to a 'normal' level of brightness, mostly akin to the nominal light level of human sight.*
[12.08.2018 21:22:51] Nyctophilia: "Gah!"
[12.08.2018 21:23:14] Nyctophilia: *She covered her eyes so the light won't blind her.*
[12.08.2018 21:23:22] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [He manifested slowly alongside her inside this mindscape. He appeared as he usually would, but with a more ephemeral and translucent quality]
[12.08.2018 21:23:50] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Why fear death? It cannot be, when you are."
[12.08.2018 21:24:40] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia began to presume a form in the mindscape. It was luminescent, vaguely human-shaped.*
[12.08.2018 21:24:53] Vagrant.Melia: *Yet the texture was much more in line with its spaceborne form.*
[12.08.2018 21:25:46] Nyctophilia: *As she sees Azhi-Dahaka, she pulls her hand down and jumps away. She also notices Melia at the side.*
[12.08.2018 21:25:52] Nyctophilia: "Where... What is?"
[12.08.2018 21:25:58] Vagrant.Melia: *It all seemed to suddenly freeze while the Order pilot was flying by in real space.*
[12.08.2018 21:26:08] Vagrant.Melia: *As soon as the pilot left, it continued.*
[12.08.2018 21:27:10] Nyctophilia: "Is this the afterlife?"
[12.08.2018 21:27:35] Vagrant.Melia: * The entity seemed to be watching, noting, perhaps even staring.*
[12.08.2018 21:27:58] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "I think the "afterlife", if such a thing even existed, would be a tiny bit more impressive - no offense to Melia."
[12.08.2018 21:28:19] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [he grinned widely] "Lacking in singing choirs of angels, too. Guess again."
[12.08.2018 21:28:28] Nyctophilia: "Then it is not..."
[12.08.2018 21:28:33] Vagrant.Melia: "Yet not without song."
[12.08.2018 21:28:45] Nyctophilia: "Urgh... It hurts..."
[12.08.2018 21:28:50] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Not without song indeed." [he nodded enthusiastically]
[12.08.2018 21:29:25] Nyctophilia: "So... This is Melia?"
[12.08.2018 21:29:38] Nyctophilia: "The... Alien?"
[12.08.2018 21:30:34] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Such narrow classification. She -is- much more than that." [he looked over to the manifestation of Melia, waiting for her-
[12.08.2018 21:30:37] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: input]
[12.08.2018 21:30:51] Vagrant.Melia: "We are Melia. We are an aspect of the Vagrants. We are an embodiment of the Light."
[12.08.2018 21:31:33] Vagrant.Melia: "We are ourselves, our kin, our song. We are whole."
[12.08.2018 21:31:44] Nyctophilia: "And yet... You are one."
[12.08.2018 21:32:01] Nyctophilia: "Are you... Alive?"
[12.08.2018 21:32:10] Nyctophilia: "Can you feel?"
[12.08.2018 21:32:21] Vagrant.Melia: "Does the darkling not feel?"
[12.08.2018 21:33:02] Nyctophilia: "I do. In fact, I do feel the headache right now. However, it started to fade away a bit, now that I adjusted to the... Thing."
[12.08.2018 21:33:32] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "It hurts only because you expect it to hurt. You don't even suspect how much expetations matter."
[12.08.2018 21:33:41] Nyctophilia: "I totaly didn't expected."
[12.08.2018 21:33:52] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Maybe not consciously."
[12.08.2018 21:34:21] Vagrant.Melia: "Yours are used to separation. We are used to unity."
[12.08.2018 21:34:50] Nyctophilia: "Well, let me rephrase it - do you have feelings?"
[12.08.2018 21:35:15] Nyctophilia: "Not for us, but for your own kind."
[12.08.2018 21:35:28] Vagrant.Melia: "We harbor emotion among ourselves. It is a natural trait."
[12.08.2018 21:35:47] Nyctophilia: "Oh."
[12.08.2018 21:35:58] Nyctophilia: "Oh..."
[12.08.2018 21:36:05] Nyctophilia: "That... Changes most of the things."
[12.08.2018 21:36:42] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "It really doesn't. Just your perspective on the things." [he grins, seemingly enjoying this excursion into mindspace]
[12.08.2018 21:36:58] Nyctophilia: "No offence, but before this day I saw you as reckless killing machines."
[12.08.2018 21:37:02] Nyctophilia: "It does for me."
[12.08.2018 21:37:23] Vagrant.Melia: "Such is a former expectation. There is no value in holding it against you."
[12.08.2018 21:37:34] Vagrant.Melia: "The Light does what it must."
[12.08.2018 21:38:16] Nyctophilia: "Yeah, now I think I understand."
[12.08.2018 21:38:27] Vagrant.Melia: "The Sparkling Raiders sought past their limited vision as darklings. It has brought them far."
[12.08.2018 21:38:41] Nyctophilia: "Sparkling Raiders?"
[12.08.2018 21:38:50] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "That...being us."
[12.08.2018 21:38:57] Nyctophilia: *she covers her mouth and chuckles*
[12.08.2018 21:39:09] Vagrant.Melia: "You know them by a different meaning."
[12.08.2018 21:39:15] Nyctophilia: "Yes."
[12.08.2018 21:39:18] Vagrant.Melia: "Yet they are still who they are."
[12.08.2018 21:40:15] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Whichever combination of words you assign to something doesn't really matter. It doesn't change its essence."
[12.08.2018 21:40:24] Nyctophilia: "That is true."
[12.08.2018 21:41:12] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "But we still have to converse in them with you, somewhat. The dream is to go above and beyond naturally."
[12.08.2018 21:41:23] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "That is who we are. We go above and beyond."
[12.08.2018 21:42:59] Nyctophilia: "Well, I can't describe the feeling I express towards them as of now."
[12.08.2018 21:42:59] Vagrant.Melia: " They have sought evolution. Their goal is not lacking in progress."
[12.08.2018 21:43:07] Nyctophilia: "Most certainly, it is not a fear."
[12.08.2018 21:43:39] Nyctophilia: "And now that I know who they are and that they are alive, the concern is gone too."
[12.08.2018 21:44:23] Nyctophilia: "Somehow... I feel a distant remorse."
[12.08.2018 21:44:36] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "For not knowing earlier?"
[12.08.2018 21:44:47] Vagrant.Melia: " The Light is not incapable of forgiveness."
[12.08.2018 21:44:49] Nyctophilia: "I don't know for what."
[12.08.2018 21:45:05] Nyctophilia: "But it's there."
[12.08.2018 21:45:08] Vagrant.Melia: "The worthy among the darkness turn themselves towards the Light."
[12.08.2018 21:45:22] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Don't dwell on it too much. Remorse only goes so far as to point. It's not -the- point."
[12.08.2018 21:47:10] Nyctophilia: "I... I-I-I can't describe it, I'm not certain, again."
[12.08.2018 21:47:21] Nyctophilia: "But... Something is not right."
[12.08.2018 21:48:35] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Don't describe it. I think that's the overall point of what you're being shown here. Words are the anathema of true meaning
[12.08.2018 21:48:41] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: however strange that may sound."
[12.08.2018 21:48:54] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [He looked over to Melia]
[12.08.2018 21:48:57] Vagrant.Melia: " The darkling needs to shed its concern. We have already done so."
[12.08.2018 21:49:36] Vagrant.Melia: "We will not seek to construct a facade. It would serve no purpose."
[12.08.2018 21:49:58] Nyctophilia: "I'm... Trying to... But I can't describe it... Grrrrh!"
[12.08.2018 21:50:26] Nyctophilia: *She holds on to her head and twists a bit.*
[12.08.2018 21:51:38] Vagrant.Melia: "Adopt patience, darkling."
[12.08.2018 21:51:47] Nyctophilia: *She mumbles* "I just realized that you're alive and that's it."
[12.08.2018 21:51:56] Nyctophilia: "But this feeling... Like something is wrong..."
[12.08.2018 21:52:31] Nyctophilia: "And it's not just about me, but about you and everyone else."
[12.08.2018 21:52:50] Vagrant.Melia: *It proceeds to continue waiting, ever calm, ever tranquil, ever listening.*
[12.08.2018 21:53:42] Nyctophilia: *She falls on her knees, still holding her head.* "I... Do not... Understand."
[12.08.2018 21:54:10] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "I think you're resisting way too much, here."
[12.08.2018 21:54:32] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Just...let it go. Surrender. Not to us, to yourself."
[12.08.2018 21:54:42] Nyctophilia: "I do not even resist... Quite on the contrary, I try to understand, what is wrong."
[12.08.2018 21:54:47] Vagrant.Melia: "We accept our nature. We do not attempt to fight it in every moment."
[12.08.2018 21:55:06] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [he motioned with his head towards Melia, in silent agreement.]
[12.08.2018 21:55:10] Nyctophilia: "And why is it wrong."
[12.08.2018 21:57:34] Nyctophilia: "Why... It all started?"
[12.08.2018 21:58:22] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "...As in?"
[12.08.2018 21:58:26] Nyctophilia: "The war."
[12.08.2018 21:58:35] Nyctophilia: "Twenty five years ago."
[12.08.2018 21:58:44] Nyctophilia: "Who was first?"
[12.08.2018 21:59:28] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Mankind often digs into things it should never even lay eyes upon. I say that both figuratively and literally."
[12.08.2018 21:59:49] Nyctophilia: "I see..."
[12.08.2018 21:59:54] Vagrant.Melia: "There was tranquility, and then there was the darkness."
[12.08.2018 22:00:24] Vagrant.Melia: "The darkness transgressed."
[12.08.2018 22:01:12] Nyctophilia: "And after that they felt victorious, thinking we are above consequences and that the space belongs to us."
[12.08.2018 22:01:24] Vagrant.Melia: "Such is the course."
[12.08.2018 22:01:28] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Such is the folly."
[12.08.2018 22:01:43] Vagrant.Melia: " The darkness spread across voids meant for the Light."
[12.08.2018 22:02:14] Vagrant.Melia: " It violated the legacy of the Great Creators."
[12.08.2018 22:02:28] Nyctophilia: "This is why I felt remorse..."
[12.08.2018 22:02:32] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "The Creators left a heritage for its children. The heritage was usurped by man."
[12.08.2018 22:02:32] Vagrant.Melia: "It sent fire against us. And it banished us to the Abyss."
[12.08.2018 22:03:01] Vagrant.Melia: "Now there is no single light. There is now our bretheren, and us, the Vagrants."
[12.08.2018 22:03:16] Vagrant.Melia: "We were forcibly diverged, and we will never be whole again."
[12.08.2018 22:03:37] Nyctophilia: "You were the ones who were devided from the others?"
[12.08.2018 22:03:43] Nyctophilia: "How... Did it felt?"
[12.08.2018 22:03:53] Vagrant.Melia: "It..."
[12.08.2018 22:04:18] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "To see the Light and hear the Song is to be incapable of imagining losing it."
[12.08.2018 22:04:41] Nyctophilia: "Believe me, I know how it is to lose a family."
[12.08.2018 22:04:57] Vagrant.Melia: * Melia's form seems to struggle to maintain cohesion. The apparent sorrow, pain, hatred, is all flowing into the mindscape.*
[12.08.2018 22:05:01] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Do you know how it is to lose yourself?"
[12.08.2018 22:05:16] Nyctophilia: "Can't even imagine."
[12.08.2018 22:05:26] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "It...[he prevents himself from going too far into it.]"
[12.08.2018 22:05:29] Nyctophilia: "And I think I shouldn't have asked the question."
[12.08.2018 22:05:58] Vagrant.Melia: "The...."
[12.08.2018 22:06:41] Vagrant.Melia: " Calm. Patience."
[12.08.2018 22:06:53] Vagrant.Melia: *It focuses on reasserting itself.*
[12.08.2018 22:06:59] Nyctophilia: "Yes. They definitely have feelings."
[12.08.2018 22:07:22] Nyctophilia: "I am sorry. Shouldn't have asked that kind of question."
[12.08.2018 22:08:03] Vagrant.Melia: "It pains us. Yet the Light will endure."
[12.08.2018 22:08:49] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "The Light will overcome."
[12.08.2018 22:08:53] Nyctophilia: "What is happening to me today... Acknowledging myself in some kind of weird telepathic subspace and appologizing to an alien."
[12.08.2018 22:09:20] Vagrant.Melia: " The darkling is learning."
[12.08.2018 22:11:18] Nyctophilia: "Yeah... It was good to finaly learn something about you. To know that you're alive."
[12.08.2018 22:12:32] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Defeating inter-species solipsism, one person at a time? I think there is more you can derive from this."
[12.08.2018 22:13:25] Nyctophilia: "Sure."
[12.08.2018 22:14:01] Nyctophilia: "I just learned what are they."
[12.08.2018 22:14:20] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "If you are ready for it, that is. We always save the best for last."
[12.08.2018 22:14:34] Nyctophilia: "Not their reasons, not how they feel, what they feel, or the rest that I cannot even imagine."
[12.08.2018 22:14:53] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Funny you should mention that. Would you like a little peak?"
[12.08.2018 22:15:15] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "But fair warning, it might be very hard to go back after you've tasted it."
[12.08.2018 22:15:31] Nyctophilia: "I've gone this far, no going back from this point."
[12.08.2018 22:15:38] Death: [RHA]Anna.Kreutzer was put out of action by [RHA]Anna.Heinrich (Gun).
[12.08.2018 22:16:38] Vagrant.Melia: *Melia's presence recedes. It permits Hussaini to go on with his plan.*
[12.08.2018 22:16:59] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [He grins as the vision morphs, seemingly losing its visual qualities and becoming less in that respect, but gaining-
[12.08.2018 22:17:12] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: something not easily expressed with words.]
[12.08.2018 22:17:37] Nyctophilia: "Uhm... Excuse you?"
[12.08.2018 22:18:37] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [An odd sensation, as if space was folding in on itself would begin. Hussaini put a finger over his mouth, a shh gesture, -
[12.08.2018 22:18:52] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: before disappearing from visibility himself.]
[12.08.2018 22:19:48] Nyctophilia: *She automaticaly shuts her mouth, but her eyes are videly open. She stands still and peeks around.*
[12.08.2018 22:19:48] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [The vision would continue receding, until it became impossibly small, smaller than the smallest space imaginable.]
[12.08.2018 22:19:58] Death: [RHA]Anna.Kreutzer was put out of action by [RHA]Anna.Heinrich (Gun).
[12.08.2018 22:20:35] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [She would, perhaps feel herself being squeezed through this tiny spot.]
[12.08.2018 22:21:18] Nyctophilia: *She folds the best way she can to not get compressed by the illusion.*
[12.08.2018 22:21:52] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [All sense of time, space, and verbal meaning disappeared for an indeterminate amount of time, in reality not taking more-
[12.08.2018 22:21:59] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: than a split second.]
[12.08.2018 22:22:39] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [Then, suddenly, the ''vision" expanded again. Revealing out of nothing, something. A small indescribable glimpse into the-
[12.08.2018 22:22:44] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: nomad psyche and reality.]
[12.08.2018 22:23:36] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: [And as quickly as it came on, it faded back again. The vision ended.]
[12.08.2018 22:23:37] Nyctophilia: *She unfolds herself, trying to grip a fresh drain of oxygen.*
[12.08.2018 22:25:50] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: And, what do you make of that?
[12.08.2018 22:26:04] Nyctophilia: "That was... Anticlimactic..."
[12.08.2018 22:26:37] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Just a small glimpse. I can't give you more than that."
[12.08.2018 22:27:16] Nyctophilia: "More is not required, quite appreciated. Really, I'm honored."
[12.08.2018 22:27:42] Nyctophilia: "That was... Quite beautiful. But not the way I was compressed."
[12.08.2018 22:27:58] Nyctophilia: "It was one of the most anticimlactic things I've experienced thus far."
[12.08.2018 22:28:07] Vagrant.Melia: "More would likely have destroyed you. Your dark minds thrive on separation."
[12.08.2018 22:28:21] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "To pass to a place you can't conceive; You have to travel through some really strange angles."
[12.08.2018 22:28:39] Nyctophilia: "Will add this to my Top-10 psychodelic experiences."
[12.08.2018 22:28:49] Nyctophilia: "As the #1, perhaps."
[12.08.2018 22:31:14] Nyctophilia: "It was strange... I am not certain what I saw..."
[12.08.2018 22:31:35] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "You didn't really 'see', that is the point."
[12.08.2018 22:31:50] Nyctophilia: "Yeah, it was just a moment for me..."
[12.08.2018 22:32:01] Nyctophilia: "A fragment, milesecond."
[12.08.2018 22:32:06] Vagrant.Melia: "Thoughts defy perception. Such is their form."
[12.08.2018 22:32:33] Nyctophilia: "But this fragment. I think it will stuck in my memory for eternity."
[12.08.2018 22:32:38] Death: Richard.Locke was put out of action by a hostile vessel.
[12.08.2018 22:33:40] Nyctophilia: "Still, brings more questions. As in, why?"
[12.08.2018 22:34:48] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Why not? You certainly enjoy curiosity, I thought it would help it flourish."
[12.08.2018 22:35:05] Nyctophilia: "Definitely."
[12.08.2018 22:36:35] Nyctophilia: "However... You could have shown me anything but this, and still I had more reasons to think about it."
[12.08.2018 22:36:41] Nyctophilia: "Well, anyway."
[12.08.2018 22:38:07] Nyctophilia: "To know that aliens are alive is good..."
[12.08.2018 22:38:14] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Yes, I can see that you are fed up with this." [he turned his attention to Melia, waiting for a response]
[12.08.2018 22:38:54] Vagrant.Melia: "Perhaps the darkling requires time to ponder."
[12.08.2018 22:39:06] Death: Flying_Dutchman was put out of action by a hostile vessel.
[12.08.2018 22:39:28] Vagrant.Melia: "It has learned much. It will need to rest."
[12.08.2018 22:39:44] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "As you say."
[12.08.2018 22:39:50] Nyctophilia: [:Defence systems - off.:]
[12.08.2018 22:39:55] Nyctophilia: "As I was saying."
[12.08.2018 22:40:24] Nyctophilia: "That was a lot of information to proccess for one day."
[12.08.2018 22:40:31] Nyctophilia: "And I am still a human."
[12.08.2018 22:40:50] Nyctophilia: "No offence."
[12.08.2018 22:41:14] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "It'd be quite odd if you suddenly weren't."
[12.08.2018 22:41:31] Nyctophilia: "Knowing that you are alive and you have feelings is relieving, but also receiving this knowledge right from you is a honor."
[12.08.2018 22:42:04] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "You repeat that word, but I don't think honor means much to Them."
[12.08.2018 22:42:10] Nyctophilia: "I know."
[12.08.2018 22:42:28] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "It's a very strange and convoluted, human concept."
[12.08.2018 22:42:41] Vagrant.Melia: "A conception of dark artifice. It has little value."
[12.08.2018 22:43:38] Nyctophilia: "Well... If it doesn't has value for you... Then I think you there can be a value in words that you made one human a bit
[12.08.2018 22:43:45] Nyctophilia: considerable towards you?"
[12.08.2018 22:44:12] Nyctophilia: "I mean, I know who you are and that you can feel."
[12.08.2018 22:45:02] Vagrant.Melia: "There is value in experiences."
[12.08.2018 22:45:13] Vagrant.Melia: "Thoughts. Actions. Moments."
[12.08.2018 22:46:08] Nyctophilia: "Absolutely. However, from your permission, I could understand your kind more closely."
[12.08.2018 22:47:30] Vagrant.Melia: "Perhaps such a moment will come. But that moment is not now."
[12.08.2018 22:47:36] Nyctophilia: "I concur."
[12.08.2018 22:48:01] Nyctophilia: "As I was saying, I am a human after all and I need to ponder on everything that happened today."
[12.08.2018 22:48:21] Nyctophilia: "And on everything that happens as of now."
[12.08.2018 22:49:13] Nyctophilia: "For me in real world... It might appear as a dream or a nightmare, until I understand how it works."
[12.08.2018 22:49:57] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "Dream or nightmare, that's up to you. Both have the same value, however."
[12.08.2018 22:50:44] Nyctophilia: "Not always."
[12.08.2018 22:51:02] Nyctophilia: "They are the same thing."
[12.08.2018 22:51:50] Nyctophilia: "But dreams don't affect your heartrate."
[12.08.2018 22:52:17] Nyctophilia: "Well, they can't wake you up midnight, that is."
[12.08.2018 22:52:37] Nyctophilia: "In most cases."
[12.08.2018 22:52:44] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: "If you say so. Alarm clock's about to go off. Hope you had a good nap." [he fades from the image, disappearing]
[12.08.2018 22:53:07] Nyctophilia: "Hm?"
[12.08.2018 22:53:39] Vagrant.Melia: "This moment is where our paths shall diverge."
[12.08.2018 22:54:00] Nyctophilia: "Oh no..." *She falls on her back.*
[12.08.2018 22:54:42] Nyctophilia: *In the meantime, she wakes up, gasping and panting.*
[12.08.2018 22:55:07] Vagrant.Melia: "We shall proceed to our sphere. You will seek yours. Our paths will cross again, in time."
[12.08.2018 22:55:23] Nyctophilia: *She breathes heavily, trying to reestabilish her breathe.*
[12.08.2018 22:55:36] Vagrant.Melia: *The mindscape may have terminated, but the "words" would still flow.*
[12.08.2018 22:55:49] Nyctophilia: Oh... Oh my...
[12.08.2018 22:56:07] Nyctophilia: What... Just happened?
[12.08.2018 22:56:27] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: That's for you to work out, dear.
[12.08.2018 22:56:43] Nyctophilia: Oh, my head...
[12.08.2018 22:56:52] Nyctophilia: O-o-oh it hurts...
[12.08.2018 22:57:00] Vagrant.Melia: *By this point the pilot's perception was definitely back to its real state. Toledo was continuing to dominate the background.*
[12.08.2018 22:57:04] Nyctophilia: Oh, freeport. Freeport, freeport, freeport...
[12.08.2018 22:57:09] (C~Azhi-Dahaka: Aspirin does help. At times.
[12.08.2018 23:00:00] 2018-08-12 23:00:02 SMT  Traffic control alert: Nyctophilia has requested to dock

I... I just know that he was there. Maybe a comm will clarify something. I think this is a day I start another one of these... Something new is happening to me. Let's see how it turns out.