The Dark Journal

[Nyctophilia]

Date - 31.08.825 A.S.
Location - Freeport 11
Log Author - "Nyctophilia"

Aaalright... That's just fascinating. Can't say that I'm mad about it, but it also doesn't makes me happy either. Now I'm freelancing directly for them, staying in the middleground, with a chance to be terminated in a proccess... And with a chance to enjoy a company of Melia. Not something I expected.

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[31.08.2018 19:10:11] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I have an important message to relay.
[31.08.2018 19:11:16] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: I'm all ears.
[31.08.2018 19:11:40] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: The freelancer, she is dedicated to the light. But she is unsure of her path.
[31.08.2018 19:12:10] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: She needs guidance. I brought her to the place, but nobody met us. Careful, perhaps.
[31.08.2018 19:12:50] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Nobody? The ship was spotted next to us for days now.
[31.08.2018 19:13:00] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Witnessing fights, even.
[31.08.2018 19:13:08] Nyctophilia: Correction if I can.
[31.08.2018 19:13:20] Nyctophilia: I am -certain- about what I want.
[31.08.2018 19:13:31] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: She should speak for herself, on that matter.
[31.08.2018 19:13:34] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: What do you seek?
[31.08.2018 19:14:05] Nyctophilia: The first and outmost - happiness. And then - understanding of them.
[31.08.2018 19:14:37] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Many seek that. Even the Order.
[31.08.2018 19:14:46] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: To understand our kind.
[31.08.2018 19:14:57] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I...don't claim to have the access into a mind that yours do. But she was tested, many times.
[31.08.2018 19:15:08] RV-Pennybrooke: Her intentions are true.
[31.08.2018 19:15:33] Nyctophilia: It is natural for you to suspect me to be the agent of someone.
[31.08.2018 19:15:38] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: We're aware. Melia was present personally for some of it, what do you have to say?
[31.08.2018 19:16:31] Vagrant.Melia: "This darkling shows their worth."
[31.08.2018 19:17:31] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Then you have an assignment - be our eyes and ears wherever you go.
[31.08.2018 19:17:39] Nyctophilia: I am already.
[31.08.2018 19:17:41] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Any piece of information you think is valuable, send it to us.
[31.08.2018 19:18:03] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Some are more valuable without the gift than with it.
[31.08.2018 19:18:22] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Don't-
[31.08.2018 19:18:35] Nyctophilia: The middleground, ey?
[31.08.2018 19:18:48] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I don't think she wants the same position as me. I don't think anyone wants that.
[31.08.2018 19:19:06] Nyctophilia: Nah, I can live with that.
[31.08.2018 19:19:30] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: It doesn't mean the future can't change.
[31.08.2018 19:19:37] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: You're saying that now. I....don't think you know...
[31.08.2018 19:19:55] Nyctophilia: Suuure.
[31.08.2018 19:20:02] Vagrant.Melia: "All the worthy shall embrace the Light. It is an inevitability."
[31.08.2018 19:20:17] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Eventually, yes.
[31.08.2018 19:20:28] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: If you think it's a convenient escape from full commitment....it is not. You'll be lost between worlds.
[31.08.2018 19:21:37] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: That's not to say I wouldn't mind a companion in my mission, but....it is terribly lonely and frustrating.
[31.08.2018 19:21:56] Nyctophilia: I said, I can live with that.
[31.08.2018 19:22:12] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: It's how you make it to be. You're very dedicated to our cause, Katherine.
[31.08.2018 19:22:16] Vagrant.Melia: "Such is the flaw of clinging to your darkness."
[31.08.2018 19:22:23] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Same can be said for only a few individuals.
[31.08.2018 19:22:31] Nyctophilia: But that's not the matter I'm here for.
[31.08.2018 19:22:38] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: You were ready to commit fully, just last night. What changed?
[31.08.2018 19:22:56] Nyctophilia: That's why I'm here. To find it out.
[31.08.2018 19:23:19] Nyctophilia: Why all of a sudden some gallic ship with hybrid tech decided to murder me?
[31.08.2018 19:23:53] Nyctophilia: And called me "unworthy" afterwards.
[31.08.2018 19:24:13] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Name of the ship?
[31.08.2018 19:24:31] Nyctophilia: Can't recall, but something about... Sabre? Fabre?
[31.08.2018 19:24:44] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Some can be shortsighted when it comes to recognizing a potential ally. It's why your endeavours are very dangerous, until you embrace the gift. They will always be.
[31.08.2018 19:25:13] Kakushi|Aoi: Especially when you're not having arranged meetings but just sticking to whoever's around.
[31.08.2018 19:25:17] Nyctophilia: Well, thanks for warning. Will keep in mind.
[31.08.2018 19:25:21] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: You should hear her story. It's long, but....the bottom line, combined with today.....
[31.08.2018 19:25:36] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Our enemies are getting more bold.
[31.08.2018 19:25:38] Nyctophilia: From the very beginning?
[31.08.2018 19:25:54] Nyctophilia: Would they actually care?
[31.08.2018 19:25:56] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Contact us via a message. Recipent: Guardians of the Arch. I wanna hear that story in detail, but not here.
[31.08.2018 19:26:30] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: We must be very cautious. They are gathering strength.
[31.08.2018 19:26:36] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: We need repairs after destroying those 2 cruisers. Minor hull breach on the left power system section.
[31.08.2018 19:26:49] RV-Pennybrooke: They may even have trans-sirius connections.
[31.08.2018 19:27:01] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Is there anything else you need before we moor for repairs?
[31.08.2018 19:27:08] Nyctophilia: No.
[31.08.2018 19:27:16] Nyctophilia: I personally - no.
[31.08.2018 19:27:18] Nyctophilia: They - mayhaps.
[31.08.2018 19:27:22] Vagrant.Melia: "Our Light demands strength. We will not gain it through observers."
[31.08.2018 19:27:27] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: I'll be waiting for that message then. Until then - may the light shine upon you.
[31.08.2018 19:27:29] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: The RV has sustained some damage as well, we will be needing some-
[31.08.2018 19:27:50] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: Unless... damn it!
[31.08.2018 19:28:03] Kakushi|Aoi: Namura: No time for repairs. We have an unknown ship on scanners.
[31.08.2018 19:28:09] Nyctophilia: Alright, off to freeport!

Not perfect, but still, a middleground that fits me. If there could be anything happening around in the first place.

And... Guess what, I've met with Kath today again. In the bar at Hawaii. Something I really begin to enjoy, but again, I have a weird feeling that pretty soon it will go away. Just like all the good things.

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[31.08.2018 14:05:52] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: They may have been cautious, but I still think they can help.
[31.08.2018 14:06:30] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Patience....they say that a lot. Our understanding of patience is rather more limited than theirs.
[31.08.2018 14:06:40] Nyctophilia: Maybe the second time will work. Or the third.
[31.08.2018 14:06:41] Nyctophilia: Yep.
[31.08.2018 14:07:22] Nyctophilia: I understand everything, but formally speaking, I'm a busy woman.
[31.08.2018 14:07:54] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Of course. But you'll have to make priority for some of the really important things.
[31.08.2018 14:08:24] Nyctophilia: See, that's where it becomes complex.
[31.08.2018 14:08:42] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Hm, what do you mean exactly?
[31.08.2018 14:08:42] Nyctophilia: For an example, I can enjoy the time with them.
[31.08.2018 14:09:03] Nyctophilia: But if in the meantime if something important is going on and I don't see it?
[31.08.2018 14:09:19] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: What do you mean by something important, exactly?
[31.08.2018 14:09:46] Nyctophilia: I don't know, the beginning of a new political conflict, for an example?
[31.08.2018 14:10:11] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It will be important thereafter too.
[31.08.2018 14:10:45] Nyctophilia: Or if someone is about to drop a nuke on something.
[31.08.2018 14:11:28] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Are....are you concerned about loved ones you have, that might be in such danger?
[31.08.2018 14:11:40] Nyctophilia: If I had.
[31.08.2018 14:12:18] Nyctophilia: I am concerned about what happens in Sirius in general. That's a part of my profession.
[31.08.2018 14:12:37] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: That we have in common. Though I'm not sure how it relates to your doubts.
[31.08.2018 14:14:07] Nyctophilia: It's not doubts, it's just my imagination going wild while something monotonous is happening for a while.
[31.08.2018 14:14:41] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Would you prefer to have this conversation in a luxurious bar?
[31.08.2018 14:14:43] Nyctophilia: I keep spinning the variants of what could happen right now and what could be happening.
[31.08.2018 14:14:55] Nyctophilia: Right, the bar.
[31.08.2018 14:15:05] 2018-08-31 14:15:12 SMT  Traffic control alert: RV-Pennybrooke has requested to dock
[31.08.2018 14:15:07] 2018-08-31 14:15:14 SMT  Traffic control alert: Nyctophilia has requested to dock
[31.08.2018 14:16:48] Nyctophilia: *once again, Nycto has left a docking bay and headed to the nearest place where she thought the bar could be located.*
[31.08.2018 14:16:57] RV-Pennybrooke: *Katherine slowly treads down the mooring hall, heading towards the main lobby and bar deck elevator*
[31.08.2018 14:17:46] RV-Pennybrooke: *The area is huge and open, with registration desks opening up to a large dining and seating area*
[31.08.2018 14:18:56] RV-Pennybrooke: *She scans the area, trying to pick up Nycto in the lively crowd*
[31.08.2018 14:19:54] Nyctophilia: *"The luxury liner, ey? Where would the bar be..." She thought, looking around in the hallway.*
[31.08.2018 14:20:57] Nyctophilia: *She looked at her watch for the are scan and figured out that the bar had it's own deck, so she headed to the nearest elevator through the crowd.*
[31.08.2018 14:21:51] Nyctophilia: *"So many rich looking people around here..."*
[31.08.2018 14:22:54] RV-Pennybrooke: *Katherine, meanwhile back from the bar, has seated herself in one of the numerous semicircular table arrangments*
[31.08.2018 14:23:03] Nyctophilia: *As the elevator stopped on the destinated floor, she walked away. The area was indeed widely open."
[31.08.2018 14:24:04] Nyctophilia: *The first thing she noticed was an anormous crystal chandelier at the ceiling.*
[31.08.2018 14:25:09] RV-Pennybrooke: *She works her commpad* Nycto, I've pinged my location. Look at your local map.
[31.08.2018 14:26:50] Nyctophilia: Yep, thanksies. *she took a look at her watch. It formed a small map of the bar itself, and the pinging red dot was apparently
[31.08.2018 14:26:56] Nyctophilia: Kath.*
[31.08.2018 14:28:04] RV-Pennybrooke: *seeing her approaching, she stands up, smiling, looking as disorderly as ever with messy hair and worn spacesuit*
[31.08.2018 14:29:22] Nyctophilia: *as she seems to be approaching Kath, Nycto tears off her attention from the watch and notices her yet again in the same appearance.*
[31.08.2018 14:29:51] Nyctophilia: "...Really? Space suit? In the luxury bar?"
[31.08.2018 14:30:52] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Look around. There are plenty of strange-looking people here, when you're in a place like this...
[31.08.2018 14:31:27] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: There's, uhm, a certain acceptance of that.
[31.08.2018 14:32:33] Nyctophilia: *she observes the bar briefly. Some were dressed quite properly, the others were wearing casual clothes..."
[31.08.2018 14:33:04] Nyctophilia: *and some didn't even managed to wear off their space suits. Yeah, Kath wasn't the only one.*
[31.08.2018 14:33:24] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It's busy enough. They won't care. I didn't exactly have time to make up. Now, let's get you something.
[31.08.2018 14:34:09] RV-Pennybrooke: *she presses a richly-decorated button on the table, and mere moments later a perfectly elegant waiter appears*
[31.08.2018 14:34:16] Nyctophilia: Fair enough. *she takes a seat nearby*
[31.08.2018 14:34:38] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I've got my drink already, she wants something to eat, I think. *she gestures at Nyct*
[31.08.2018 14:35:47] Nyctophilia: Yeah... *she takes a look at the menu* I'll have the steak. Medium-rare.
[31.08.2018 14:36:05] Nyctophilia: And a glass of wine.
[31.08.2018 14:36:41] RV-Pennybrooke: "Do you wish to consult our wine list, madam? Or we can send the establishment's best recommendation for your meal."
[31.08.2018 14:38:12] Nyctophilia: Actually... *she takes a brief look at the list of the wines*
[31.08.2018 14:38:50] RV-Pennybrooke: *Katherine chuckles, pouring a glass of beer* Take your time. They're not in a hurry here.
[31.08.2018 14:40:18] Nyctophilia: Yeah, think I'll see what this place can afford. Bordeaux, semisweet.
[31.08.2018 14:40:21] RV-Pennybrooke: *The bottle reads "Xeno's Lament IPA"* They have everything here, even this.
[31.08.2018 14:41:54] Nyctophilia: Yeah, not a big fan of beer. Oh... And I think that Volgogradskaya Vodka will be it for me.
[31.08.2018 14:42:32] Nyctophilia: They even have this here. That's ultimately rare.
[31.08.2018 14:42:50] RV-Pennybrooke: "Right away, Madam!" the waiter leaves with a short but well-rehearsed bow.
[31.08.2018 14:43:52] Nyctophilia: Right, back on topic.
[31.08.2018 14:43:56] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It's hard enough being what we are. I think we should take the comforts we can get.
[31.08.2018 14:44:30] RV-Pennybrooke: *she looks up from her drink* Absolutely. The variants that are spinning in your head.
[31.08.2018 14:45:01] Nyctophilia: When we were near that arch, I had alot of option what could happen.
[31.08.2018 14:45:29] Nyctophilia: For instance, I could be murdered, something else could happen...
[31.08.2018 14:45:44] Nyctophilia: And also, Kusarians could came, or Dragons, or the Order...
[31.08.2018 14:45:55] Nyctophilia: And in the meantime, alot of things could be happening.
[31.08.2018 14:46:19] Nyctophilia: Like, for an instance, some idiot with a nuke in their hand could have bombed an another Freeport.
[31.08.2018 14:47:45] RV-Pennybrooke: Yes, I know what you mean. *she strokes her chin* It's what I call the "multiverse void".
[31.08.2018 14:47:59] Nyctophilia: Yes, exactly!
[31.08.2018 14:48:12] RV-Pennybrooke: The possibilities of everything that can be, could be, and could have been suck you in. And because those possiblities are quite literally infinite, you're liable to infinite recursive thoughts.
[31.08.2018 14:49:11] Nyctophilia: And that's what I ultimately like and in the same time it sends me into the land of doubts.
[31.08.2018 14:49:41] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It's important to stay grounded, as it were. For me, the most important grounding is the feeling towards others.
[31.08.2018 14:50:10] Nyctophilia: But! It keeps my thinking proccess pulping, which I always need.
[31.08.2018 14:50:32] RV-Pennybrooke: *she pauses, thinking for a moment* When....you feel emotional attachment to someone, that feeling will keep you in the real.
[31.08.2018 14:51:02] RV-Pennybrooke: Because your relationship to them is fixed in the real and the current.
[31.08.2018 14:52:37] Nyctophilia: *Her gaze directs into the crowd* Can't say I've got emotionally attached to anyone in my life.
[31.08.2018 14:53:05] Nyctophilia: Not that I had time for it.
[31.08.2018 14:53:34] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: *smiles wryly* Well, perhaps I've been reading you entirely wrong then. I don't think so, though.
[31.08.2018 14:54:01] RV-Pennybrooke: You care for her. I don't need to read your thoughts like they do to see that.
[31.08.2018 14:55:35] Nyctophilia: Well... To be honest, as one for whom "sympathy" is a myth, I uh... That's not emotions.
[31.08.2018 14:57:16] RV-Pennybrooke: You're trying to distance yourself, but why? You're no- "Your steak, madam, and your vodka. Chilled."
[31.08.2018 14:58:00] RV-Pennybrooke: *He places the meal and drink on the table, along with a small dish of ice cubes, with a small pair of ice cube tongs*
[31.08.2018 14:58:08] Nyctophilia: Yeah, uhm... Thanks. Put it on my tab.
[31.08.2018 14:59:07] RV-Pennybrooke: "You companion has already had all expenses transfered to her account, madam. Enjoy your meal!"
[31.08.2018 14:59:42] Nyctophilia: *she stares at Kath*
[31.08.2018 14:59:57] RV-Pennybrooke: *The waiter nods politely, and moves on. Katherine smiles at her.*
[31.08.2018 15:00:21] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I said I'd invite you out here. Don't give another thought to it, it's fine.
[31.08.2018 15:00:56] Nyctophilia: *not even paying an attention to the meat, she pours some wine into the glass* Yeah fine... Thanks.
[31.08.2018 15:01:18] Nyctophilia: Even so, I didn't even enjoyed a company for alot of years.
[31.08.2018 15:02:10] RV-Pennybrooke: You, er....well, I don't want to disturb you while you....eat. But you said you don't feel attachment?
[31.08.2018 15:02:21] RV-Pennybrooke: I don't think that's true. Certainly not in my experience.
[31.08.2018 15:03:00] Nyctophilia: *as the steak was left unnoticed, she took a sip from her glass* Emotionaly - no.
[31.08.2018 15:03:28] Nyctophilia: There
[31.08.2018 15:03:37] Nyctophilia: is just an another complex pattern.
[31.08.2018 15:03:50] RV-Pennybrooke: I think you are trying to convince yourself of that, more than me or anyone else. *she sips her beer*
[31.08.2018 15:04:26] RV-Pennybrooke: Complex patterns are all the world is, my friend! That doesn't denigrate them in any way.
[31.08.2018 15:04:54] Nyctophilia: Pfft. I don't convice myself in anything. I know what is wrong with me and what is not.
[31.08.2018 15:05:25] RV-Pennybrooke: *leaning back* Fine, let's go with that. What do you think is wrong with you, and what isn't?
[31.08.2018 15:05:34] Nyctophilia: I will keep saying it, but that day when I met Melia was the day when I actually felt something for someone.
[31.08.2018 15:06:42] Nyctophilia: Ha! There is alot of things that you can describe as my negative sides and as my positive.
[31.08.2018 15:07:05] RV-Pennybrooke: And how would you describe those things?
[31.08.2018 15:07:23] Nyctophilia: Not to describe, just going to bring some examples.
[31.08.2018 15:08:17] Nyctophilia: What is funny that they might be simultaneously good and bad, depends from perspective.
[31.08.2018 15:08:53] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Good and bad are somewhat ambigious concepts. But let's hear them, then.
[31.08.2018 15:09:37] Nyctophilia: For instance, the thing we've talked about before - I can't tolerate monotonous proceedures and I begin to think what could
[31.08.2018 15:09:46] Nyctophilia: happen and what is happening and yadda yadda.
[31.08.2018 15:10:13] Nyctophilia: Second - I like dark places.
[31.08.2018 15:10:17] RV-Pennybrooke: I would hardly consider that a fault. I think that's the basis of drive.
[31.08.2018 15:10:44] Nyctophilia: Third - I stalk people.
[31.08.2018 15:10:56] Nyctophilia: And fourth - my philosophy.
[31.08.2018 15:11:17] RV-Pennybrooke: *she nods, slowly* Everything you've mentioned so far is entirely consistent with what I would consider moral and ethical.
[31.08.2018 15:11:26] RV-Pennybrooke: Not to mention logical.
[31.08.2018 15:11:52] Nyctophilia: Logic aside, I'm still alive and kicking. And I'm still me.
[31.08.2018 15:13:14] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: *gently placing her hand on hers* You'll only stop being yourself if you die or suffer severe brain damage.
[31.08.2018 15:13:35] Nyctophilia: Worst case scenario - Core.
[31.08.2018 15:13:48] Nyctophilia: Or the Order.
[31.08.2018 15:14:29] RV-Pennybrooke: Either making money from genocide, or doing it just for fun....I suppose that makes the Order worse.
[31.08.2018 15:14:32] RV-Pennybrooke: But not by much.
[31.08.2018 15:14:50] RV-Pennybrooke: And yes, that's an oversimplification, I know.
[31.08.2018 15:15:00] Nyctophilia: Can't say they do it for fun, they were doing it because they had a goal.
[31.08.2018 15:15:15] RV-Pennybrooke: Yes, genocide. That is their goal.
[31.08.2018 15:15:20] Nyctophilia: But now they're doing it because...
[31.08.2018 15:15:38] Nyctophilia: *she stares into the ceiling* Reich! Golanski! Godadmiral!
[31.08.2018 15:15:58] Nyctophilia: *she looks back at Kath* What kind of absurd is this?
[31.08.2018 15:16:49] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: *she looks back with sad eyes, turns away and sighs* They have the right drive, the energy.
[31.08.2018 15:17:03] RV-Pennybrooke: Like so many do. It's a shame it goes in completely the wrong direction.
[31.08.2018 15:18:04] RV-Pennybrooke: They want the survival of humanity, and I cannot fault them for this. But they don't recognize that it cannot happen within.
[31.08.2018 15:18:41] Nyctophilia: I admire the for attempting, at least.
[31.08.2018 15:18:58] RV-Pennybrooke: If they....if they somehow succeed, and wipe us out, they will create a future in which there is no hope for redemption.
[31.08.2018 15:19:09] Nyctophilia: They tried. And now not only they hate them, but also all of humanity calls them terrorists.
[31.08.2018 15:19:24] Nyctophilia: They... Well, you know whom I mean.
[31.08.2018 15:19:53] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It is deeply ironic. Humanity call them terrorists which is actually true, but not for the reason they give.
[31.08.2018 15:20:13] Nyctophilia: You know. I think that an instinct of preservation is kind of within Nomads too.
[31.08.2018 15:20:38] Nyctophilia: Like, both sides will do anything so survive.
[31.08.2018 15:20:53] RV-Pennybrooke: Of course, that is why they struck out twenty-five years ago. They discovered their home had been occupied.
[31.08.2018 15:20:54] Nyctophilia: That's how Vagrants have came this far.
[31.08.2018 15:21:31] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: It's very sad to see them. It may actually help them in some ways, to be separated, but they are suffering for it.
[31.08.2018 15:22:24] Nyctophilia: Don't know, I think whatever happens within the Nomad Society, stays within the Nomad Society.
[31.08.2018 15:22:44] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Nycto *she grasps her arm* They are in danger. You saw what happened today.
[31.08.2018 15:23:17] RV-Pennybrooke: It's not that hard to imagine a worst case, in which they are lured out, trapped, and hunted to extinction.
[31.08.2018 15:23:23] Nyctophilia: *she looks back at Kath*
[31.08.2018 15:23:43] RV-Pennybrooke: What do you think would have happened to Melia, had I not stopped her? Where would he have led her?
[31.08.2018 15:24:07] Nyctophilia: Mmm... Many options.
[31.08.2018 15:24:26] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: They are....very proud. They don't want to admit being influenced by humans. But they are.
[31.08.2018 15:24:45] RV-Pennybrooke: Now when I influence them, I mean the best, at least. But they can be influenced by others, too.
[31.08.2018 15:25:12] Nyctophilia:  ...You want -me- to influence them?
[31.08.2018 15:25:50] RV-Pennybrooke: You already are. She cares about you and you for her.
[31.08.2018 15:26:20] RV-Pennybrooke: They have a strange sense of pride. They won't ever admit it, but they do.
[31.08.2018 15:26:32] Nyctophilia: And if you bypass it?
[31.08.2018 15:26:41] RV-Pennybrooke: But they are not without failure. They make mistakes, and they could be dangerous.
[31.08.2018 15:27:05] RV-Pennybrooke: Bypass it...? How? I'm not even sure they can do that within their own network.
[31.08.2018 15:27:19] Nyctophilia: Not literally. In psychological sense.
[31.08.2018 15:28:01] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Well, we can do what we can. Even you or I, we can influence them and try to keep them from danger.
[31.08.2018 15:28:40] Nyctophilia: If there is danger.
[31.08.2018 15:29:15] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: There is. What you said just confirms it. Not to mention my own experiences.
[31.08.2018 15:29:22] Nyctophilia: By far, I can tell that you better not interrupt a Nomad if it's upset.
[31.08.2018 15:29:49] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Oh, quite the contrary. That's when you most need to upset them.
[31.08.2018 15:30:06] RV-Pennybrooke: What do you think would have happened, had I not stopped her?
[31.08.2018 15:30:16] Nyctophilia: Again, multiple scenarios.
[31.08.2018 15:30:50] RV-Pennybrooke: Endless scenarios, I know. But he baited her so easily. Just trying to kill someone she never could.
[31.08.2018 15:31:18] RV-Pennybrooke: She would have rolled right into Mu with no care but eliminating him, likely.
[31.08.2018 15:31:41] Nyctophilia: Technically speaking, she could, but, yet again, it was the emotions that took over her. Now that I understand because...
[31.08.2018 15:31:52] Nyctophilia: It was probably the Order's work.
[31.08.2018 15:32:08] Nyctophilia: Why they hate them -that- much.
[31.08.2018 15:32:18] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: They know that. They can manipulate, and they will use it.
[31.08.2018 15:33:00] RV-Pennybrooke: They can let loose emotions that will trigger them, and use that to hunt and destroy them.
[31.08.2018 15:33:37] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I am honestly glad I was still human in that situation, because I saw it immediately and managed to get her away.
[31.08.2018 15:33:47] Nyctophilia: Let the anger overtake you? Something that is a single human capable of handling.
[31.08.2018 15:34:05] Nyctophilia: But, in their place, I understand.
[31.08.2018 15:34:29] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Because humans are used to it. They don't fully understand the idea of using someone's emotions to bait them.
[31.08.2018 15:34:45] RV-Pennybrooke: It is a, in the truest sense of the word, alien concept to them.
[31.08.2018 15:34:53] Nyctophilia: Uhm... That's where I'd disagree with you.
[31.08.2018 15:35:55] RV-Pennybrooke: Hm, how so?
[31.08.2018 15:36:31] Nyctophilia: They should understand how it works.
[31.08.2018 15:36:58] Nyctophilia: Because it was twenty-five years since the first contact.
[31.08.2018 15:37:32] Nyctophilia: If they didn't learned anything about humans since then, well...
[31.08.2018 15:37:36] Nyctophilia: Fun times.
[31.08.2018 15:37:48] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: You may think so. And to an extent, they- "May I get the ladies anything else?"
[31.08.2018 15:38:01] Nyctophilia: No, thanks.
[31.08.2018 15:38:39] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Yes. Grey Wing gin with tonic. Lots of ice. Thank you.
[31.08.2018 15:39:21] RV-Pennybrooke: *she turns back to Nycto after the waiter leaves* They've learned how we work, but they're still vulnerable to it.
[31.08.2018 15:39:52] Nyctophilia: Yep, that's what I mean.
[31.08.2018 15:39:53] RV-Pennybrooke: They have tried various approaches, but they don't really have a solid counter. And it's dangerous.
[31.08.2018 15:40:08] Nyctophilia: They know, but they don't understand.
[31.08.2018 15:40:26] RV-Pennybrooke: Or alternatively, they understand, but can't deal with it.
[31.08.2018 15:40:37] RV-Pennybrooke: Either way, they're in danger. Probably more than they realize.
[31.08.2018 15:41:00] RV-Pennybrooke: The fact that one of theirs seems to have been influenced by an LSF agent confirms that.
[31.08.2018 15:41:17] RV-Pennybrooke: Unless, of course, it was the other way around, but that doesn't make sense in the context you gave.
[31.08.2018 15:41:39] Nyctophilia: Uhm... I'd say they're in a way greater danger, since.
[31.08.2018 15:41:51] Nyctophilia: You know. Harbinger and the Auxesian lady.
[31.08.2018 15:42:17] RV-Pennybrooke: *she freezes* Harbinger?
[31.08.2018 15:42:51] Nyctophilia: Y-Yes. She said that she met him.
[31.08.2018 15:43:00] Nyctophilia: Can't say that it was truth.
[31.08.2018 15:43:31] RV-Pennybrooke: *looking in a corner, dreamily* The one that we've called Harbinger....taught me a lot about what I know of them.
[31.08.2018 15:44:11] RV-Pennybrooke: The love and understanding he gave me, I- I've struggled to find since.
[31.08.2018 15:44:40] Nyctophilia: And she said that he's a grumpy old Nomad.
[31.08.2018 15:45:13] Nyctophilia: Are we talking of the same Harbinger here?
[31.08.2018 15:45:27] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: What? No, Harby is a darling. I don't know what they did to upset him, but....
[31.08.2018 15:46:29] RV-Pennybrooke: I'll send you a postcard of one of my old encounters, if I find it again.
[31.08.2018 15:47:15] Nyctophilia: Hmm wow, appreciated.
[31.08.2018 15:47:56] RV-Pennybrooke: "Madam, your gin & tonic. Pardon the delay, it's quite busy at the moment!"
[31.08.2018 15:48:41] RV-Pennybrooke: *sipping her drink* Ah well. No need to yearn for past days.
[31.08.2018 15:49:10] Nyctophilia: Yeah, well, what I was talking about is now. Because if they manage to influence Harbinger in some way, things will go
[31.08.2018 15:49:13] Nyctophilia: downwards.
[31.08.2018 15:49:44] RV-Pennybrooke: Who? Who do you think could do such a thing?
[31.08.2018 15:50:57] Nyctophilia: Whoever has an influence over him.
[31.08.2018 15:51:05] Nyctophilia: Auxesians, in particular.
[31.08.2018 15:51:43] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: Auxesians....eugh. I've seen them work together with the Core. They are certainly not to be trusted.
[31.08.2018 15:51:56] RV-Pennybrooke: But they have an agenda of their own, and I don't know what it is yet.
[31.08.2018 15:52:28] Nyctophilia: They've said that it's something about preserving the species.
[31.08.2018 15:52:50] Nyctophilia: So most likely themselves.
[31.08.2018 15:53:10] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I feel there's a greater irony here that I'm missing.
[31.08.2018 15:54:04] RV-Pennybrooke: Katherine: I need to, uhm. Clean up my ship and check my reactors for a bit.
[31.08.2018 15:54:18] Nyctophilia: I'll be here!

I am still uncertain about telling them my story with Melia. To me, their tone sounded rather dry and careless. So I think I better stick to my work... If I manage to find anything new in the next days.

N.