The Dark Journal

[Nyctophilia]

Date - 25.10.825 A.S.
Location - Freeport 11
Log Author - "Nyctophilia"

A few weeks ago I was proposed to support the Commune in a... More "direct" way. They said they could put a use for my skills and help me perfect them. How can I say no? I mean, I'm no assassin, but retrieving data and mixing up with the crowd? That's what I'm good at. It was just a matter of time while I settle down and would be ready for another change in my life. And today was a moment. Now I'm working directly under Azhi's directive, but my task is all the same. Being unseen for the others and gather as many intel as possible.

On the other hand, It's also interesting how Vagrants reacted to me being a part of the Commune's socium. I mean, I'm just a member of one of their cells, but still... They seem to acknowledge me more as a person of their own rather than the one who wants to bring them harm... Which is good, I think?

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[25.10.2018 21:51:50] Jane.Foster: Oh. Hello.
[25.10.2018 21:53:08] Jane.Foster: May I know what brings you here?
[25.10.2018 21:53:43] Vagrant.Melia: "Curiosity."
[25.10.2018 21:54:12] Jane.Foster: *She looks around* Something's on your mind?
[25.10.2018 21:55:43] Vagrant.Melia: "Another shell. Curious."
[25.10.2018 21:55:58] Jane.Foster: *She looks back at Melia* Why do I feel like you're staring directly into my soul.
[25.10.2018 21:56:18] Jane.Foster: Yeah. New ship.
[25.10.2018 21:57:34] Vagrant.Melia: "The Light discerns a change."
[25.10.2018 21:58:37] Jane.Foster:  ...Can't hide anything from you, can I?
[25.10.2018 21:59:14] Vagrant.Melia: "Our sight is close to infallible. There is little which we cannot evaluate."
[25.10.2018 21:59:31] Jane.Foster: Azhi proposed me to support them in a more... Direct way, if you can say so.
[25.10.2018 21:59:51] Jane.Foster: Couldn't say "no".
[25.10.2018 22:00:01] Vagrant.Melia: "Amusement."
[25.10.2018 22:00:02] Jane.Foster: It was just a matter of time.
[25.10.2018 22:01:26] Vagrant.Melia: "Joy. We offer approval of this path."
[25.10.2018 22:02:47] Jane.Foster: They know what I do best. They can help me perfect my skills and utilize them in a right way.
[25.10.2018 22:03:15] Vagrant.Melia: "Kin."
[25.10.2018 22:03:50] Vagrant.Perseis: "Kin. This Darkling enters our Voids. Why (?)"
[25.10.2018 22:04:35] Vagrant.Melia: "Our patience prevails. They now follow the path of the Sparkling Raiders."
[25.10.2018 22:04:41] Jane.Foster: Worry not. From now on, I'm one of the Raiders.
[25.10.2018 22:05:32] Vagrant.Perseis: "We are in joy of your presence, Sparkling Raider"
[25.10.2018 22:05:49] Vagrant.Perseis: "Yours seek, which (?)"
[25.10.2018 22:05:57] Jane.Foster: Although, I can afford to be sincere only with you.
[25.10.2018 22:06:59] Jane.Foster: I'm not exactly certain at this point. Ever since I've met Melia, I think I was looking for a place for myself in this universe
[25.10.2018 22:07:37] Jane.Foster: Or... Trying to figure out who I am, exactly.
[25.10.2018 22:07:48] Jane.Foster: Complicated.
[25.10.2018 22:07:59] Vagrant.Perseis: "Baffled yours are."
[25.10.2018 22:08:09] Jane.Foster: Yep. Can't deny.
[25.10.2018 22:09:03] Vagrant.Perseis: "Yours are going through a self-trial. Find your path, only yours can. Amusement."
[25.10.2018 22:09:19] Jane.Foster: That's what I'm doing.
[25.10.2018 22:09:28] Vagrant.Perseis: "The Light opens doors, but you choose."
[25.10.2018 22:09:36] Vagrant.Melia: "Theirs are still far, yet they draw closer with each moment."
[25.10.2018 22:09:58] Vagrant.Perseis: "Agreeance with our Kin."
[25.10.2018 22:11:03] Jane.Foster: It's... Complex to understand completely other nature. Accept it - more so.
[25.10.2018 22:11:33] Vagrant.Perseis: "We see."
[25.10.2018 22:13:06] Jane.Foster: When for your whole life you had nothing but examplars of distruction, hatred and all other good things we're known for...
[25.10.2018 22:13:42] Jane.Foster: It's hard to accept peace and empathy.
[25.10.2018 22:14:12] Vagrant.Perseis: "Join us on our small venture through the Voids of the Light."
[25.10.2018 22:14:24] Vagrant.Melia: "Darklings are not susceptible to the way of peace. Such is our struggle."
[25.10.2018 22:14:32] Jane.Foster: Um... Uhm... Am I even allowed?
[25.10.2018 22:14:51] Vagrant.Perseis: "The Light sees warmth within you"
[25.10.2018 22:15:23] Vagrant.Melia: "The Sparkling Raiders are welcome among the Light."
[25.10.2018 22:15:31] Jane.Foster: Well... Thanks... I guess...
[25.10.2018 22:17:12] Vagrant.Melia: "Sincerity. Yours would even be welcomed in the voids of the Bretheren."
[25.10.2018 22:17:34] Jane.Foster: N... No, not without their invitation.

Yes, I might be a part of the Commune now, but it doesn't gives me any privileges. It's just a sign that I'm contributing directly to their cause. Doesn't means I should disrespect their borders. I just... Who am I even talking to? I know that I have standarts. It's not like anyone's gonna run aboard my ship and hack into all of my logs to read them. That would be just a waste of time.
Right... I'm doing these for myself... Gosh, how far it all come? I'm talking to myself in my own journal, just realising how fricking alone I am. Or maybe not quite? I never loved to be in the epicenter of a crowd. But a company of people? Ahhh... I always knew that the days of us three gathering around will end. Well, as Melia says, it's just something that I have to accept. Crumple it, swallow in and move on. No need to dwell on what was in the past, no matter how good it was. I still have present to deal with.