Audio-Diary of the spiritual Sun

[Dark_Knight]

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21. Hrī

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Hatred does not cease through hatred but through love alone they cease.

I met someone who represents Aṅgulimāla to me, a man so committed to sewing hatred, evil and indeed murder for his own joy and well-being. He had no remorse, I looked into his eyes and saw a storm of emotions that culminate in this evil shape. I was not scared, I stood my ground and I stared death directly in the eye and told him to kill me but he did not, his blade did not cut across my throat and I did not move on to the next path. Perhaps in my fearless, I scared him someone who would not back down, would not fight simply someone who was there, a being giving nothing but kindness back to his hatred. My love for him, my spiritual love is the same as any other who come to me for guidance. A yearning, a wishing of to convert this man from one of war and murder to one of peace and redemption.

Can he truly be redeemed? Aṅgulimāla was, or so the legend says. The Buddha taught that the fire of anger can burn up everything we have done to bring happiness. This man said and did unskilful and unmindful things. But his actions arise from his own suffering. He may just be seeking some relief, hoping to survive in this dangerous universe. He is suffering, perhaps he needs my help, not my anger. I have accepted the way things are, I am able to love everything and everybody. What this man has, it is a spiritual illness. His heart is tormented by that pain.

Enlightenment is just another name for boundless love but should I devote my time and energy to repairing what may be irreparable, to someone who may not listen and simply cast off my body as he has done to many others? These are questions that flood my mind, the evil in men and the evil back in the Houses that I left behind. I went on a journey with one who believes in Amaterasu. She carried the message of love, compassion, forgiveness, tolerance, contentment, and discipline. It is a wonderful thing to have variety, It is an expression of individuality. The variety of the different Sirius religious philosophies is a very useful and beautiful thing to me, they give me great wisdom to meditate on. In these coming days, I must be tremendous, limitless and content with the way things are.

I cannot change the universe, this only leads to suffering and I have no more room in my heart for hate.