Melissa nods, obviously enjoying the conversation, although currently short with Doc is. Something about the way he talks makes her feel more comfortable. As if talking to a friend more than a potential business partner. After taking another sip of her coffee she looks at Doc, dead in the eyes.
"I think what Velvet needs, is people to slap me down when I get too big for my own boots. Jerard has been amazing for this. He's experienced in diplomacy, he's honest and is as true a man as any. But I think having you onboard in any capacity, is another potential filter for my constant mistakes, gaffs and heavy handed approach a lot of the time. Having more people with the experience you and Voncloud have are just too invaluable. Turning a blind eye is definitely something that over time, I will learn. I guess you know as well as anyone, that doing so is tough. And I was never truly cut out for what I've got myself into... Doc, I'll be honest. I'm scared."
She pauses, something about her letting go of her emotions currently felt right. She speaks in a more worried tone.
"I'm scared for my people, Doc... I'm a career LSF agent, who's never truly been a leader. I've been in and out of Nomad space more times than I imagine... I'm a soldier, an agent and not a diplomat or a leader. Since starting Velvet, I've made many mistakes, paraded as a Zoner which does not suit my ideals, and since then... I'm learning to let go of what made me who I am... Was. And now, I don't know anything. The people of Malta who I've been so used to being in open conflict with... I brought my people into that. When I should have sat by and played nice. I've had to make decisions that have sent good men and women to their deaths on missions against Nomads, had to watch as my old life fades away for this new one that I know nothing about... I think without Jerard and those who I've got around me... We would not be having this conversation."
She chuckles lightly as she lets the emotions flow away from her, becoming a bit more professional again, but still relaxed. Taking another sip from her coffee, she again looks at John.
"My ultimate question to you Doc, is if you would want someone like me as a business partner, given what I'm sure you've already heard and seen of me?"
