Vilhelm Von Hof - Personal Logs

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►Identification: Vilhelm von Hof

►Assets: "Voss" 72-ARKM-G27 "Phantom" Rheinland Heavy Fighter
Rheinland Cruiser "Helgoland" - Donau Class

►Affiliation: Marinenachrichtendienst (MND)

►Status: [CLASSIFIED]

[12:30]

Sometimes I just wonder if it's even worth fighting for Rheinland. The glorious warcry "For Rheinland!" lost all its charm after what I keep witnessing. Everything is crumbling. The Buro's actions make me doubt more and more their sanity, too. I didn't enlist in the MND - or the Rheinland Military prior - to guard a Cardamine shipment, shoot my own kin, watch those next to me die as I hopelessly stare, with my breath taken away by the shock of losing.

And here I am now. Thinking what makes me different from a regular deserter. By the looks of it, I'm no different from the scum I used to shoot down days ago. Weeks ago. Even years ago. I don't want to fight for the wrong cause. I don't want to serve anyone anymore, but myself. I've lost all interest in serving the Republic, and I'll be damned if I were to join the Empire in its last days.

[16:41]

I had a meeting with Ben and Fiona. I wish I hadn't now. I presented the idea of simply vanishing in Sigma-13 for a while. Ben was alright with it. Fiona? She was really, really pissed. She even threatened with contacting the Buro about this "completely unacceptable action". Ben calmed her down, talking about the benefits of distancing from all this mess. Fiona simply threw her tablet on the ground with the Buro's contacts on the ground in rage, cracking it, then stormed out of the office. After all this time I thought she'd be convinced that Battlegroup Helgoland as it is now does not have a place in modern Rheinland.

[17:00]

Fiona returned just now. She picked up the tablet's remains and took a seat, staring at them for a bit. I just stood there, hesitant to look at her. So what did I do? Stare at the ceilling. Eventually she spoke, agreeing to the plan. Apparently she'll try to sort things out with the Buro, since she's more trusted than I am. I doubt the Buro will let a mini-fleet just leave after all this. Maybe Fiona's got a better idea.

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