I met again that Charlie.Jukins and he has the talent to push me out... Anyway before him, there was a rogue. I think I acted uncivilized with... Today, I feel angry toward myself. I wasn't able to stop the guy like always. Again in the same day, I met the guy again and of course I was with Camile Summers, but we failed... My ship was destroyed because I took down an Insurgency by the loose of my ship. I could escaped before the explosion took me off. I will try to don't full my diary with my mistakes... It makes me more angry toward myself. I wonder what does having real friends sometimes... When I was young, I did not have one. When my father Yuzu Takeda vanished when I was seventeen, in 819, my mother raised me all by herself. I did go at school, but most of the time, my mother educated me. That's why I pray after all. I would like having at least one friend that he supports me in the worst situations and in the good ones... I know the members of the 46th Strike Force could be like my friends, but I don,t know. Something tells me to just stay respectful with them and that's it. Maybe if I travel I could make some friends? Nah it won't happen I'm sure of it... What else to say? Oh yeah. At New York, there was Camile and someone else and I joined the talk. We have talked about things that happenned. Camile talked about the Battlecruiser from yesterday and I said I was useless like always and I want to be like my father, but both of them told me to stop pushing myself... How can I explain? It is important to me being a person important and showing that I am not useless. I need to train harder and harder. If my body is crushed and or my soul, I will push myself and surpass my limits.
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