Fallen Angel of Malta

[RavenBlade1980]

Log 1/30/828

Its been some time sense the last log. I been out searching my heart and soul as well as some work I been doing on my ship. I upgraded my guns to the new GC weapons and changed my engines again the GC ones are far better and don't require as much maintenance. Life has been bitter sweet sense I left the Outcast I no longer have the fear of being forced into a life I never wanted, and I am free to do what I please. Yet I had a big target on my back for some time. My adopted father put out a bounty on me to bring me back it seams even he couldn't let go. I had only one choice I had to face him in single combat and win my freedom once and for all. It was a fierce fight but I won and now no one questions me leaving anymore.

When I was walking away to get to my ship my big brother Antonio stopped me and to my surprise he told me he was proud of me, and that our dad would be to. That actually took my breath away for a moment Antonio always told me I was the same as my mother right down to the the veracity and fierceness of my heart to the to never back down no matter what the problem is. Then he gave me a hug and told me if I need anything I need only ask. I told him the only thing I need is to be left alone that this path I walk I must do it on my own. My heart beats of Malta's blood but my soul belongs to the GC and someday hopefully soon to the Gen'an. I must walk my own path and to what that path is, it will show itself to me when the time comes. Perhaps when the sisterhood completes their cause I will come back but the war needs fresh blood and I seek only to fight and if I must die in their name and with the teachings of Yuyu Matsuda in my hands heart and soul. I feel more at home with them then I do with the Outcast, Daddy always told me to fallow my heart and that is exactly what I am doing.

He stepped back and was shocked by my answer he simply handed me some credits and said this is for the cause and that no matter what I do, I will always be his little sister and if I am in trouble and he is near he will come to my aid because that's what brothers do. We both stood there for a moment and then we walked our respective ways. And now I sit back in Ainu, eating my rice and sushi and drinking my plum wine. And thinking of all the events that led to this point I am starting to understand and now I have no fear, and most of all no regrets. I am almost ready to try to join the Gen'an again but I still have a few more things to figure out I must be able to have no hesitations in my heart ones that is gone I will know the path to walk.

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