Fallen Angel of Malta

[RavenBlade1980]

Log 3/31/828

It has been some time sense my last entry I been busy with things and a few missions with my Gen'an sisters, but sadly my uncle had passed while I was away so I returned to Malta to attend his funeral. I know its something frowned upon among my sisters but he was one of the most influential people in my life and was the one who told me to fallow my heart when I became lost and not agreeing with the Outcast. I would not be where I am if it wasn't for him he is after all the one who gave me some credits to leave. I never shared this with anyone but its something I had to deal with I have sense payed him back all the credits, and to my surprise he named me his beneficiary to his estate. In his things I found pictures of my mother when she was young him being her brother it didn't surprise me. What did surprise me was the fact I looked so much like my mother when she was my age. The other thing I found was my mothers diary which she kept a lot of her history and what it means to bear the lineage of our bloodline going back to the Hispana. She was in a arranged marriage with my father and she wasn't happy at first, but what cheered her up was when she had me. Later she made my uncle swear that should I ever want to leave and to not be forced into a marriage that I wanted nothing to do with that he would do everything in his power to help me leave and make sure that I have all that I would need in that escape. Its as if she knew that what happened to her would happen to me. As I read on I found secrets that litterally blew my mind and poetry that moved my soul. I couldn't find anything about any regret, and she had nothing but love for my father it just took time but the difference in my father and that blowhard that wanted me as his wife was one small thing he was a cruel and evil man he owned many slaves several of them where woman if he could enslave anyone that was a woman and have children with them by forcing it I could never ever let that to happen to me. Any question of me leaving the Outcast was wiped away after reading my mothers journal ended up she had talked to the Gen'an in the past but nothing ever came of it. I at least have one foot in the door. I am all in as far as I am concerned. I will do all that is in my power to prove to my sisters I am worthy to become a full member in their ranks it will take time because my last failure they are being careful in this but I will show them I will fight and if I must die at their side. That I will be worthy to serve in their ranks. May the Gen'an show me favor and allow me to serve as one of them.

May my story live forever

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