Am I being too critical?

[Traudel Habermeyer]

I think maybe other people don't even care or notice all of the things I notice but obviously me who wrote it sees every little mistake and in the moment I am convinced that they will also see it. Hopefully I will get more comfortable once I write more and more

It is a thing of practice and getting used to, ja.

I like to compare it to improvisational theatre, the only one knowing what is supposed to be there, what is a blunder and what was missing by accident is the one performing - in this case oneself. Everybody else just watches a show unfold of which they had no clear picture to begin with. Crucial point of this is, as you correctly said so yourself, the part of making it a habit to worry less. First steps are the hardest.