Connor, I'm glad you're back safe, man! Take your time, surely you have lots of stuff planned with your family.
Sadly, we can't choose how events play out. The famous Einstein once claimed that "God does not play dice with the Universe". That theory, as far as I know, is still not proven, and sometimes it seems that quite the opposite is true.
You and your mates did the right thing. The proper way to honor them is to live your life to your fullest potential. Focus on the things you can still change, there's a whole life ahead of you, makes no sense to waste it reminiscing about the things that you can't do anything about anymore.
