Uhm, eh. I will try to come back soon. Just had a shower and wiped my flight suit clean, it is drying right now. I did not want to cause a drama, I just- could not bear the mocking while, well, I threw up and lay in front of the toilet and could barely breathe and the ghost slut talking to me in my head was, it was just unbearable. I do not want to have more than my own thoughts in my head. I hate it. I do not want that. I get abnormally angry.
Uh... I feel like space is a bit too much for me, sometimes. I really just want to spend time with you, make some money, know that Miss Aspen is alright and all that. But there is so much politics and angry people and weird alien ghost sluts and analchromatic commutantism and all this, and stupid colony ship captains getting you into trouble, and I panicked when you got called in to fight the Xenos, I was unable to move! I just wanted to help and protect you but- I could not move at all. I-
I have two friends, one is Miss Aspen and the other is you, and I do not want to lose either of you. I need to learn what to do when something like that happens again. And I need to learn to understand all these complicated words. When Mister Klugmann says something, I understand nothing. I could listen to his voice for hours, he sounds so intelligent, but I do not understand anything. I feel like Miss Harper and you and Julie are the only ones I really understand. And I do want to be friends with Miss Harper, too, and with Julie.
Uhm, I-
Uh-
I-
I will put on some clothes and then try to get back to my ship. I feel better now, somewhat.
