Uhm, hey, uhm... I do not know if you have noticed, but I put a key card into the pocket of your jacket, so, uhm, you can open the door to my room whenever you want. Like, even when I am not around, you can just sleep there if you want, and, uhm, if you have trouble with anything at Valoran, you can just go here and, uhm, take a break. There is a box with snacks and synth paste under the bed, water for weeks and some spare clothes I bought, since, uhm, you know, we have the same sizes.
Against better fudgement, I was in Tau-29 again and just kept looking at the sun and the way the light reflects from the asteroid belt. Nothing went wrong this time, so, uhm, I am okay. But being out there helps me a lot, in a way, to calm down and think about things. I think I am starting to process things now, with my escape from Pittsburgh and all that. I do wonder a bit where I could belong to. Not like, uhm, a faction or company or anything, I am pretty sure I want to stay out of trouble and those things. This woman at the freeport, I think Ezra? She kept talking about the leaks on the neural net and that I should really care about all that stuff, but I am still sure that, uhm, that this is best left to other people.
I am still of the opinion that everyone is doing horrible things, and that trying to find out about all these things does not make me any happier. I am sure there are many other slave pits like Pittsburgh or similarly horrible things, but, uhm, I would rather like to think about how pretty space is and, uhm, all the friends I have now, and about learning so I stop saying things that confuse other people. I sat in my cockpit and played harmonica, and I thought about getting a violin, too. Being in space has the advantage of nobody else but me getting to hear my pitiful attempts of making music, tihehe!
Uhm, if you have some time in the near future, I-I would like to ask you some questions, which are a bit more, uhm, personal. Because, uhm, I do wonder if- uhm- if, I do wonder if-
Uhm, nevermind, I, it us a difficult topic- and, eh- uhm- I do not- think there is any good- response-, uhm.
