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user hotel-1-5 logged in... user hotel 1-5 running application "My Journal"... encryption protocols running... encryption level = HEAVY... | Entry Number: One. | Entry title: Injured. | Date of entry: 04/01/834 I can't believe I'm fucking writing this, but, since being stuck in a bloody infirmary bed is pure shite. I cannot think of anything else to add to that bucket list I was writing, and I can't read anymore of Gav's journal without getting depressed because I'm missing the person I used to be, while I'm already missing Kris right now with how bloody boring it is here. Neither my fellow patients nor the nurses or doctors have a bloody sense of humour, granted I won't pretend I'm exactly a model patient here, but still it would be nice to just have a friendly face around, especially when that face is one as cute as Kris's. Bloody hell. And this is why I never did decide to write one of these. Seriously if anyone ever read that... Eugh, I'll just have to make sure this thing is encrypted heavily, very heavy. Fuck it, while I'm talking about, err, writing about Kris. I'm worried damn sick about him right now. There's been a lot going on these last two weeks alone. And the worst of it was confirmed. Kris is a key. Changes nothing for me to be frank, was going to fight anyway, but I guess now he doesn't have that option. Then there is the entire mess with Levan... god, don't even know what happened there but, Levan demanding payment? That's the biggest alarm bell of them all. I know he said he needed time alone, which I do get, but... it feels like every time one of us leave him alone, especially if it's with Raven. Trouble comes along and manages to find him rather handily. Or he does something stupid 'cause he feels some need to prove himself or just can't let anyone in to help him and in it's enough to drive me up the fucking wall! Huh, you know what, guess I'm seeing the appeal of this, felt nice getting that off my chest. And now that I'm thinking about it, a breakout might be in order. No, okay who am I kidding, it won't even be a breakout but still, maybe, I'll have to consider it tomorrow. The longer I'm stuck here the more tempting the idea of shooting Baz is, can't believe I'm out of action when Kris might just need me the most... great job me, should have punched first, or better yet shot first, Baz wasn't pulling his punches and I could have come off a lot worse. Suppose it doesn't matter now, pretty sure that matter is settled now, I wonder how much fun he's having in the infirmary on Nobeoka right now. Speaking of shooting someone though, these damn nurses and doctors might be next if I don't get a smoke soon. Okay, no, that's bad, shouldn't be talking like that. But seriously, I CAN'T HAVE A CUNTING SMOKE! My one good way of coping in situations like this! And it isn't even an option 'cause of this bloody cracked rib. Load of bollocks. Ah to hell with it, might as well try and get some sleep now. Maybe I'll try and get in touch with Kris as well, make sure he's doing okay. Then seeing how that goes, I'll think about "breaking out" of here. user hotel 1-5 closing file... user hotel 1-5 logging off...