Iekahara, Mieko | Auxiliary Diary

[Nodoka Hanamura]

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Date/Time: April 21st, 834 AS | 1802 Universal Time
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The inside of a Hagane can be made out. Mieko's eyes are red from hours of crying, bawling her heart out. On the right control panel rests her automatic pistol.

This message.. is for Hanamura-sensei.. Bride-nee-san.. and the others.. and anyone who.. comes across this recording. For too long, I have ran, and ran.. at least.. when I was with Hanamura-sensei.. I didn't feel like it was running.. I felt.. alive. But now.. years have passed, and this world is so much colder.. so much.. different.

I.. have grown tired of running alone. The Harpies are gone.. Vex-san is gone.. Hunt-sama is dead.. and Marisa.. has yet to respond. I.. I grow tired of this world.. and yearn for the sweet release of death. Golanski.. Kishiro.. Lost Company.. The Commune.. I guess you.. all of you, can count your victory. It may not be Hanamura-sensei's head.. but I am tired of running - and it is my head you will get..

The girl takes the pistol, tears in eyes and frustrated emotionally. She aims it at her head.

I'm sorry.. Hanamura-sensei.. nee-san.. minna-san.. I can't do it anymore...


Goodbye..

Her hand shakes as the barrel rubs against her skull, a subroutine set to commit a non-preserving deletion of her root partition upon the death of her host body. She was all alone now, and would die alone, drowning in self-pity and misery. In days long gone she could have never contemplated taking her own life. But now - she was tired. Her finger starts to pull on the trigger. Memories past from all the experiences she has had in the past 13 years seek through her working memory. A final sanity test, some rogue process somewhere, trying to get her to stop. She pulls tighter and tighter on the trigger.

Nothing. She releases the trigger, and puts the gun down again. She breaks down crying, in tears. She can't will herself to end her life.. maybe because she holds out hope that her friends will come back. Maybe because she just can't give up. She doesn't know - it eludes her. But all now she can do, is cry, which she does, until she eventually passes out, hours later. The feed ends, as an auto-away trigger is activated.

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