Question to the community

[HUMPHRESS]

I want to be respected. I want to be seen as competant and helpful in the groups I am present in.
I also like the pvp itself, there is certainly a sense of satisfaction to taking someone else down.
Another reason is I want to help others improve in PvP, answer the questions I didnt have answers to when I first joined.

Finally; discovery has great ships and weapons. There is a character and imagination to every fight, and the weapons and ships have a "rule of cool" to them that I adore. I remeber playing HoI4 and feeling that sense of building a glorious empire to last for a hundred, nay, thousand years. Freelancer also invokes such a feeling, the sense of a vicious brawl between 2 vessels as their crews scramble to keep the ships running, as the commanders of the ships give orders and guns fire. For everyfight I feel like I can immerse myself in it, imagine the fight in my minds eye. It works because discovery's charecters, ships, guns, politics, and universe feel like they give so much that my mind wants to picture.

The main thing I dislike about pvp is the drama;
If you tried to win in anyway that wasnt a pure 1v1 skill challenge, you did something underhanded and unfair.
I have felt salty after enocunters, but I go out of my way to keep a cool head and show empathy for others.
Its a shame others do not adapt this mindset.

This game should be an escape, it should be enjoyable.
Maybe its a sign of my immaturity that I dont understand why people dont just talk shit out or shut up.


TL;DR
Shooting stuff feels great!
The community suffers from an "us vs them" mindset, and devolves into pointless arguing and ends up killing my fun.
Still; I like many of the people in this community, and watching things go boom is fun, so I stick around and continue shooting things

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