Elaine has asked me some time ago about the drastic change. She said that I followed them on my own accord. That it was all my own free will. She is right. But why? Because I saw no other choice. I was lost, I wanted to be found. They found me and I wanted to be part of them. I wanted to have a family. I did everything for them, even if I was useless in the end. Then, there was silence for a while. They promised to be with me, always and forever. But it was a lie. They disappeared without a word. One day they were close, the next they were gone. I was, once again, alone and lost.
Then I found Amy. Or rather, Amy found me. She helped me when I was stuck on my carrier. It was a miracle that thing actually managed to survive and get repaired. Amy, who hated them for her entire life. She opened my eyes, she had a bit part in my change. I have become aware of my surroundings again. I have become aware of the fact that they murder just for the fun of it. It is in their very being. To kill, to eradicate humanity. Or to convert them. They see us as lesser and project themselves as higher beings, as gods. They are manipulators by design, created by an ancient civilisation, probably millions of years older than humankind and far more superior.
So why have I become who I am now? Because this is the real me. The me I always wanted to be. No one shall ever manipulate me again. Amy, we will go through hade's flames and back, together. For our future and our legacy.
