"Un-Original, guess you caught me there. My personal reasonings, alright, here goes. I will tell you my honest reason then. My life, is empty. I use to make a living preying upon the weak. And I never grew used to it. Every day, it destroyed me as a person and eventually, I had enough. I refused to do as my family, my friends, and everyone around me did, as they took joy in doing so." She stopped for a moment and began thinking.
"I left them, I took what was mine, and left that which I had stolen. I needed to redeem myself, my conscious will never forgive me, it will never forget what I have done to others. I thought about turning myself in to one of the various house governments. But I had witnessed their corruption first hand, and they are no better than those I used to live with. And thus I took the only remaining option, I turned to those who are actually helping end the corruption, saving the already corroded Sirius. I suppose my answer is to right my wrongs, however, I can't just right my wrongs by apologizing to the families of those I've killed, I can't give people whom I've stolen from their belongings back. I need, need, to make sure that which I have done is not done by others, and the only way that will ever happen, is if the reign of the Coalition brings and end to it. I can never, forget, all I can do is try to fix it. Fix all of it. And it will never be fixed."
She began sweating, she once again thought she was going to die, the fear that those of the Coalition inflict in the minds of others was indeed formidable.
"Cardamine. A curse in it's own right, I didn't rightfully choose to be stricken with it. It was by the choice of fate that I be born with the addiction. I am not 'packing' as you said. I have left that behind me. The last bit of Cardamine in my possession I left in a safe in my personal quarters of Ronneberg Base, or at-least, I think that's how you pronounce it. I'm not to good on the local tongues. And I have relinquished possession of my personal quarters, so I do not have any Cardamine, nor do I plan on having any. I don't yet know if I've kicked my addiction however, it's been a mere 4 days since I've last used, and no harm has come to me yet. If I haven't kicked my addiction yet, it will be gone. And when it is gone, I will have survived. So the answer is a yes, I have abandoned Cardamine completely."
