The Truth Unveiled

[Saerieve]

Two more days had passed, and he was still lost... At least now he knew what his next step should be, at least now he knew how should he fix things - at least part of it. He had came to realize it wasn't anyone's fault if he felt like he'd been living a lie, as he was the only one guilty, as that exactly was what he had been doing in past year. He was trying to step away from who he really is, from the past that although wasn't in his favor, but was still his own.

Passing of every hour, as he was lying on his bed reminded him more and more of who he really was. Reminded him of when he was still a kid, when he decided to join the Royal Police only to prove he's better than his older brothers, and when he ran from Gallia deciding not to ever come back and not to ever speak a word of who he was back there again. Maybe -that- was the first wrong move that resulted in all his failures. Maybe he had to accept who he was, not to live in the shadow of his past, but to be proud of who has he become of what he once was.

Maybe he had done all the work in past few months, only for someone else, but now that he came to think of it, that was the life which he made, for himself. A life that many could not even dream of. A life much similar to his childhood dreams - the same dreams he had tried to forget in past two years. Every memory that passed through his mind, every memory that reminded him of who he once was, made him think maybe he should take off the 'mask' he had made for himself and live as who he really was. Maybe before, who he really was didn't feel appealing to him, maybe he wanted to be someone else, but now, without even knowing or noticing it, he had turned into something much better, much stronger.

But one thing he knew, was that he could not stay on Ainu any longer, as every step he took in the corridors of the station reminded him more and more of a past that didn't exist, of a life that he had made for himself in his imaginations, and had turned into something so real for him that he couldn't really believe it was only thoughts, only wishes, and only hopes. Every step he took, every face he saw, reminded him of something that was not a part of him, and that was why he couldn't stay there any longer - Not until he was strong enough to ignore the feeling again.

He knew that he had no real place to go, but he also knew he had earn trust of enough people to be able to earn himself a new place to call 'Home'. Somewhere quiet, somewhere with less 'familiar' faces, and somewhere that he could be who he is, without having to worry about annoying others. He knew of a Dragons installation at the edge of Kusari space, one that had remained since the old days of Nomad wars. Once, front line of a battle he had only heard of, but now, a quiet base with not many people on, and the very few Dragon patrols which stopped by just to resuply. The station that had all the Dragons attention back in the day, now was nothing more than half-deserted.

Thinking about his chances, he knew that Ryuku was his best choice. Although he had visited that base once or twice just to resupply, but he knew if he wanted to move there, he would need the direct permission from one of the shoguns, and someone within the Dragons to arrange him a room on the station, so he could move out of Ainu and spend his time on Ryuku, waiting for what that might come next...

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