Pre-Genesis

[Turbo Chalgar]

Wakeworld

[color=#FFCCCC]The moment the darkness splits in two'€¦a painful moment, the only boundary between the reality and the dream are your eyelids. The pain of being alive, felt every single moment...the fear of waking up'€¦Victoria felt dehydrated almost as the empty whiskey bottle on the desk. But there was something worse than the hangover burning in her. It was there for as long as she could remember, some primal hunger taking control of her body making her skin go pale and forcing tiny drops of sweat to appear. The dry station air did not provide the necessary oxygen, the eyes blinded by the light cannot see anything but blackness, the heart beating like crazy cannot pump enough blood'€¦the pain of being alive was something else for her. Just now she noticed an arm that didn'€™t belong to her'€¦Jason from maintenance a conquest, a testament to her vanity sleeping right next to her'€¦ Victoria slowly got up looked and around the small room. Her body was trembling; she checked if Jason was still asleep and went to the small bathroom. She looked in the mirror only to see a ghostly early morning image of a person dead for at least 50 hours, then she removed the cover of the light above the mirror and got the stashed there small black tube with a curved needle. Victoria stuck the needle in her nose and took a hit. One small hit'€¦and the monster living in her chest fell asleep...it was back to her old pathetic self again.

'€œYou are absolutely nuts, that thing will get you killed either by overdose or a firing squad!'€

Victoria twitched startled by the voice and the needle dug inside the skin of the nose producing a tiny stream of blood running around the corners of her lips.

'€œDid I ask for your opinion Jason? No I didn'€™t and what the frakk do you want anyway? A wake up kiss? I am not your girlfriend so be on your way! D'€™ya hear? Get the frakk out!'€

Jason made grimace as if he knew the answer already turned around and started dressing up. Victoria stuck some cotton in her nostril to stop the bleeding. As Jason was leaving the room Victoria said

'€œAnd if you must know, I can stop any time I want.'€

The biggest movie cliché she could have thought of'€¦a convenient lie told not for Jason but for herself. A lie makes life easy, guiding it along the path of the deception created by your mind. A lie makes the truth seem banal. Victoria relaxed in the sofa and put her legs on the table knocking some of the rubbish she had there. She lit a cigarette and got lost in thought as the smoke started twisting above her head as a snake. The snake- the original deceiver. Her whole life she'€™s been that snake living in the shadow of sins committed not by somebody else. A snake living in her world convinced that if 10 000 people say the same lie it'€™s no longer a lie. She dressed up in her colonial-lieutenant uniform, checked her sidearm and put it in its holster. On the way out she went to the fridge and opened it. Most people store foods drinks and other perishable consumer goods but none of these things were present in her fridge. The order of the containers inside was striking almost as striking as their content. Frozen urine, blood, and biological solution. Victoria opened each of the three boxes and took one vial of each...it was the medical exam day, there was one every month and she had to be prepared'€¦