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Dear Mother,

I got your last letter, hehe how ever did Gregory hurt himself so badly on the bridge?
That was funny to read about, I hope he gets better sometime soon, maybe I will send him some flowers.

I'€™m sorry it'€™s been a while since I sent you a message, a lot has been going on here and I'€™ve been busy with my jobs.

Mother.. Am I too nice to be a navy officer? I get told that a lot, that I'm too kind for this job. It'€™s true that I don'€™t really ever feel like hurting people, or fighting, but, what else can I do? I didn'€™t go to Cambridge with everyone else when they wanted to go and become doctors and spacecraft engineers.

I don'€™t really have, any qualifications... the Navy really feels like it'€™s my only calling, I wouldn'€™t know what to do if I wasn'€™t in the navy. heh.. I'€™m only still in the navy thanks to Mason. I lost my position in the Liberty Navy primary fleet, I wouldn'€™t be too confused if Mason didn'€™t also lose his position, I tried my hardest every day but I guess it wasn'€™t enough. Mason and.. And Joshua always had to come to my rescue when I needed help, If Mason wasn'€™t there, Joshua was, If Joshua wasn'€™t there, Mason was.

So much so that, I.. God, I know what you are going to say once I tell you this, but you better just calm down ok mother? I... Got a crush on them. You didn'€™t meet Joshua Ashfield, he's.. He's a nice person.. To me at least, and of course you know Mason, he's really sweet, I don'€™t know what it is, but when he'€™s near, when we are together, even if we are in danger, I feel so safe.

Mason has had really bad things happen in his life recently, I didn'€™t see him for a month.. When he came back, it was.. It was awful; he treated me differently, like an enemy. I grew very fond of Joshua in Mason'€™s absence, but... When Mason returned to patrol, I managed to, to get him to open up to me.. Something was troubling him and I could tell, I could feel it mother, something was wrong.

And... when we met on Newark Station to talk about it, I could see in his eyes that he was different, there was something weighing him down. Mason told me, about his girlfriend.. and, about her and Joshua they had cheated on Mason. I felt like something inside my heart had been burned, Joshua was supposed to be Masons best friend mother and he did this to him. Masons girlfriend.. she was pregnant and expecting his child.... but, she miscarried after being shot, I couldn'€™t believe it mother, nor could I hold back my tears anymore, you know how I get when I hear a sad story. I wept into his chest, holding him tightly as he continued to tell me everything that had happened to him. I don'€™t know if I was hugging so tightly for my sake, or his, I felt I needed a hug, and I wanted to give him one.

I.. haven'€™t seen Joshua since then, I don'€™t know what I would do if I did... Mason also saves Joshua from trouble all the time! All the time mother and he still did this terrible thing, he still thinks Mason doesn'€™t know about it too... I'm shaking now just thinking about it. I'm not sure if I'm angry or.. I just don'€™t know. I don'€™t want to hate him mother, but I can'€™t forgive him for what he has done to Mason, as his best friend. Mason told me that.. Joshua has always been that way, and that he sleeps with lots of women and dumps them right away. I felt cold listening to his words when he spoke them, then he said something which filled me with, such warmth mother, it was different I felt hot. Mason told me, that he had warned Joshua to never ever come near me in that way or things would get bad between them. Mason was protecting me all along, even when he wasn'€™t there in person. I won'€™t forget the feeling I had when Mason told me that, I rested my head against his chest still, feeling a heat I'€™ve never felt in my chest. I still get it when I think about it, though not as prominent.

L..last night, I heard that Mason has lots and lots of women after him, I felt a little, empty inside I wasn'€™t sure if.. Well if he liked me like that. We went flying for a while since patrol was dead, we went to the place he goes to think about things, we ended up in a wondrous place. After we got back, I... managed to ask him if he wanted to come on holiday with me sometime. Now calm down mother, and none of this '€œI told you so'€ ok? It will be a long way off, I need to save up my money, so.. it will be a long long time but, Mother, he said he would like to come. I was so scared I thought my heart was going to jump out of my chest and I would not stop shaking. I had to turn off the monitor and I think my nerves got the better of me... but, he said yes mother. And that made me feel.. Feel like I could defeat all the pirates single handed!

I will write you again soon ok?

Take care of yourself, say hello to Uncle Henry, Vinny and of course, Gregory.
Love you loads X X X x
Tia.

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