"What a day, I was able to fly with the Brigadegeneral today and we got to see really interesting things, a strange base which we don't even know who it owns...the Cayman system, a beautiful place which is probably going to be claimed by the SCRA and of course the kill on the UN. FInally something a little reviving, the last days have felt like...they were just empty but this kind of woke me up a little. Days like these I could take all the time. Soon, very soon I will think about my future in the Armee, what I can make out of myself, I know I have the potential to do great things in this movement, more than I can do at the moment and I hope the Oberkommando also thinks like that. Riemann out."
"I did it...I actually did it...I got promoted. My effort finally worked out and it encourages me to work on myself even more. Frau Brigadegeneral already showed me some information about the Spezialoperationsabteilung, it looks like a lot of opportunities but also like a lot of work and with that an even rougher life than now, I don't know if I would be able to see Lukas often enough or if the job would occupy me all day, maybe I am not even strong or good enough to do it...I really need to think about that decision, it is not something to be decided on the minute of the offer, I don't want to disappoint the Brigadegeneral though, she probably has high hopes in me and the least I need is to shatter these thoughts....or maybe just imaginations...? I shouldn't be so rough on myself, a woman in the rank of an Oberleutnant in an Armee dominated by the toughest men in Rheinland...I am either tough or smart, I wish I was both though but I can't decide if I fit in any of these criteria. I will just look into it and see what to do...maybe an advice or two by SOA agents...let's see. Riemann out.
"Almost two months...I have been abroad for almost 2 months...it feels like it was forever, I didn't even realize how much I missed all the things here...everything, the work in the Armee, the crew on the Fenriswolf and especially Lukas. I've just heard that he was on tangier too, in the orbit, I hope he didn't get hurt...this event has been not only tough and tiring...it was also traumatizing in a way I didn't expect it to be, mainly because I didn't know what would happen.
She takes a deep breath
I don't know if it was the darkness or the brutality that was present on this surface but I know that I am not someone who fits in the Spezialoperationsabteilung, that is just something for people who are tougher than me. I also don't know how I should look on my rank in the Armee now, should an Oberleutnant not be able to take more? Maybe I am not supposed to have some kind of leading purpose, but on the other hand, I love Rheinland and I love the people of Rheinland and especially the Hessians, they are my family and having a leading role is a great honor for me. I am probably overreacting, everything went fine and I did my job, Anna should be satisfied with my actions, I hope so at least. Then there is this other issue that will probably never leave my head, the Jotunheim...I was told it is repairable, should I take the chance? it would be a lot of work but I am sure my people and the rest of the Hessians can do this. For now, I need to rest...and regain my energy."
"It is...better than seeing an old friend that I could have missed...better than seeing...I have no words for this, my baby, my beloved ship, it is back...they managed to repair what was damaged and replace the old core which burned through everything the ship had. I didn't tell Lukas yet, I want to see the look on his face when i tell him...oh man...
There is a pause for 10 seconds
I thought this was it, I thought....it would be gone forever...I love my crew...my mechanics, everyone involved, may Odin be with you forever, you saved what was worth the second most, the future is promising me great times being with my crew in the old ship...well....now it is....kind of new. I can't wait, I was waiting long enough, it's time to join the battle again."
"Wow, what a day, almost getting killed is something not nearly as enjoyable as staying alive. Nothing but an attempt to talk with a BMM ship in Stuttgart as a Rheinwehr Wraith approached me. I wonder, why this man even worked for the Rheinwehr, he seemed from Coalition origin so he could have chosen the right way but I guess that's too late now. Anyway, I digress, he shot me, not surprising, obviously but the fact that there was a Tirpitz-class battlecruiser just a few minutes after I almost got him, made me re-think my choice to attack. Oh, Gott, where do I even have my mind...uhm...one second....the date, the 3rd of February 824 A.S. exactly, where have I been? Oh, ja, the battlecruiser that tried to shoot me together with the Wraith. I think...I would have died if there wouldn't have been this woman, this very very strange but interesting woman, a rebel most likely, a rebel within the Rheinwehr ranks as it seemed, she was flying a Fafnir...ja...a Fafnir it was, she shot the cruiser which had to run from us then. This stupid Rheinwehr soldat came back after he also ran for repairs and to re-arm himself, yet, I almost got him again. My Odin was pretty damaged so at the right moment, I and this woman fled from the battle and made our way to Omega-11 so I could dock on Freital and get some repairs, she couldn't dock as her transponders were kind of weird. "Unknown", it said, awesome, I wish I had a transponder like this, paired with a Wraith I would be invisible. She told me a lot of interesting things about a small group she was part of, as if they were assassins, they hunt down unloyal Rheinwehr soldiers, pretty good in my opinion, she didn't seem to show any hostility towards me so we split up later and agreed on contacting each other again, which she really did. Oh, Laufey says someone's trying to dock here, well, I am done anyways, Riemann out."
"So, Lukas and me, we talked about the Hessen...well...first about his mentor who died in the ranks of the Coalition, what a shame...he was so unhappy, it killed me. It was the man who gave him his Loki fighter that he loved to use so much. I think I have never seen a person being sad like this...I didn't even know how to react, I just tried to be as understanding and warming as I could, not sure...if it was enough. *she clears her throat* We talked about the Armee, how it is being run. He is worried, I am too but I have more faith in our cause than he does it seems. I don't want him to be executed for treason or something like that, Gott, no, never would I want that but he knows he is endangering himself there, it's risky, the people within the Armee don't like it when you show open disgrace for their cause...nothing good for him at all, I will do everything to ensure he won't get hurt, in the end, he is my husband and not only a fellow Hessian, he's more than that."
"What a day I had, well, yesterday, I had an interesting talk with a Kishiro worker whom I wanted to fine, he had some good ways to talk around it, talking about his daughters and the rest of his family, in the end, I got a million credits out of it. My mercy won again, I am not even sure if that is a good or a very bad thing. If Heinrich would have seen that, she would probably have beheaded me on spot. Another interesting thing was that BDM Agent or Rekrut I encountered on the same lane I talked with the Kishiro. She was all nice and we had a kind of amusing talk until there was this Samura ship...or was it another Kishiro ship? Uhm, I don't know, anyway, I saw it and chased it down, he was really mean before and deserved a small punishment but the BDM ship followed me and we had a funny chase that consisted of jumping between Neu Berlin and Frankfurt until his stupid hull finally gave in. The BDM, as sorry as I was, also had to suffer the same problem a few minutes later, despite the Gunboat they had in the vicinity. At least I got out safe, not much profit but some fun, it's something...I guess."
"So I just made the most influential decision in my life, I left the Armee and all the people I got to know there, unfortunately, I must leave everything behind which is ... very hard for me. I am not yet sure of what I will become but my friend Vanessa might help me out with this and I will make a notification in here as soon as I got something, Laufey, you will always come with me. Shut it down.
"It has been about 20 days now, I was stuck in my own thoughts so I kind of forget about the log here, sorry Laufey, didn't mean to ignore you. I wish I could have detailed everything that happened in this time but I actually can only jump right to the point, I joined the Order, why did I do that? Well, I needed a break from Rheinland, my first actual break, I want to develop myself, the Order is one of the closer groups where I can go, another option would have been the Coalition, who knows what the future brings, for now I only know, that I will do my job here, learning about the Order and about the Nomads, I don't know how long I will do this before I move on but maybe it somehow keeps me here, I don't want to be sure about anything now and just want to walk the way I am on right now and for Gott's sake, Laufey, make an alarm on this so I don't forget to save my entries, danke."
"This is somehow not the same as fighting for Rheinland, I have been with the Order only for a short time and yet I already feel like this is not a place for me, they are not that different to the people in the RHA, the big difference is that they fight for the whole of Sirius, but it is only the Nomads, we will still have problems after them. I miss Lukas... I feel like I made a wrong decision, I started to like my fellow agents here but... it is not the same as before, Lukas is with the Coalition now, I wonder if there would be a place for me as well. I bet sooner or later my way will bring me back to the Hessen and maybe I get my old position there in case it comes that far, now, I think I will have a look on New Moskau. I am not feeling like I am where I want to be."
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