The impure Diamond

[Jansen]

I met another being, it was setting a trap for a Hessian gunboat that seemed to have angered it. I kept some distance to it and the jumphole, where it was waiting and soon the Hessian jumped in. The being started to shoot it fast and without mercy, but the Hessian was able to escape to Ronneburg with a barely intact ship.

After I made sure that the being calmed down I tried to answer some of the questions I had, especially what they are and who sent them. When I asked it who sent it, the answer was 'The Community', an answer that was not really what I expected, so I asked if this Community was something that I would call gods and it answered in a very cryptic way. I think it wanted to set this Community on an equal level to gods. So this question had been more or less answered.
I also wanted to know what these beings were, so I asked if it would be something like a machine, after it made remarks that it followed the communities will. It did not answer this question directly, but it mentioned that a machine is lifeless. So after asking if it would be a living being it gave me another cryptic answer. It stated something that I could not understand really. I think it wanted to tell me what they are just there because this community needs them to fullfill their objectives. But that was nothing that answered my question.

It left me alone after it gave me this strange answer, but while it left I felt like something big, some greater thing touched my mind. A feeling I cant quite explain.
And there is another thing that confuses me, it mentioned that this community would be watching me. Something that gives me a parallel to the thing this hunter told me about the gods, that they always watch us and our actions, to evaluate us and our lifes.

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[Jansen]

What is right, what is wrong,what is truth and what lie? I am not able to tell the difference anymore. Every time when I think, that I found an answer for something, an answer that would be the truth, I have to ask new questions, more questions and even more confusing ones. Maybe because the answer found was just another lie, maybe the truth is much more complex then I would imagine, or maybe because I am not able to see the truth anymore? I dont know what to think, I dont know that to do, there is no clear path as it was before, until I left the Hessian movement behind. Now everything is blurry, sometimes I even think that the gods left me, that I am not worthy in their eyes.

Encountering another being just increased the confusion, it told me about a prison inside of me, a prison built from doubts. It even tried to show me a way to destroy it, to be free again. But the only way to do so would be to find the lies. How should I find lies if I can not not even tell the difference between the truth and a lie anymore? The only good thing I experienced in the last weeks was the sound of rain, the being created the sound of rain, rain at a place called Gaia. Maybe I will go there somewhen, maybe this is where I can find a solution. Maybe this is the only solution, maybe I am able to find other ways.

Something only the time will show.

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