Changes and Issues

[Doc Holliday]

Not so long ago, around February or so, I posted about how my wife and I lost a child which would have been our second. Even before that, I was diagnosed with depression so that only compounded it. The only thing that kept me going was the theater production on which I was working, "Exhibit This!" Well, it ended a few weeks ago and once it did, I found that dark, lonely place of depression getting deeper with my on going career issues and the like. It wasn't until I caught myself saying "maybe this would be a better world without me in it" did I finally decide I needed some help so I checked myself in for that help. I spend several days there.

Even though I'm back home, I still fight those demons, relying on my loving wife to guide me through. Between spending time with her, working two jobs and doing theater work, my online presence has been non-existant. I do apologize for that as I feel that I have abandoned my friends, fellow admins and TAZmaniacs. In fact, this is the first time I've logged in here for quite awhile.

I will get back. I just need some time to get my mind in order and to work on re-kindling my lost career. I'll only say that I am considering moving overseas to do this which will also get me away from the chaos which has gotten me to where I am now. Re-enlistment in the military is also an option but I prefer the first.

This is a great community, one that I have missed being a part of recently. I'm not ignoring people nor am I pushing anyone away. My feeling is simple. If I can't give you 100% then I'd rather give nothing. I'll try to be around more here.

Thanks for listening

-John

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[Veygaar]

Stay strong mate. You have my support.

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[Curios]

You're a nice good man, John, and here is a lot of good people around as well. Sometimes we are looking on the ground under our feet so we can't see the skies too often.

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[Madvillain]

take care man...
don't forget that it's a beautiful world out there.

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[AceJoker]

I'm not a man of advices, cuz I dunno if they work. But I know that this one always works:
Take all the time you need, mate.

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[JayDee Kasane]

We will support you in our thoughts Doc. clear your mind and return when you are ready and dealt with all things that not letting you feel happy'ness. We all have dark times. but they doing us stronger. fight for your future, be strong, never break when failed and look at things like a man.

Untill you return - we all with you. Dont let dark drain your smile

~Dmitry

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[Rommie]

Depression is a tough thing to go through. Take your time, we'll be right here.

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[Toaster]

Take your time.

It's not like Sirius will fall apart without your mediation.

Edit: Not immediately, anyway.

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[Dusty Lens]

*high five*

*low five*

[ryoken]

Just push through it. I was on meds for 5 years dealing with Depression. It is hard to deal with. I would say it gets better, but it seldom does. I still deal with it daily. Best advice i can give you is talk about it with friends and family. It helped me, and is very good when you feel your lowest. Good luck.

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