Just a hint

[Exsiled_one]

For TLDR people (It's blaming myself and pointing out few interesting things. protecting indies too kinda)

For others disclaimer: I am not sorry for way I ever acted, but I do realize I was fueled by desires and that's not the way to live, not in game or in real life. Of course we all have desires but clinging to them is what creates suffering and problems. This is just observation.


So hey, I used to justify and modify my roleplay heavily and changed my opinions left and right to be able to punish the people I thought played the game differently, or should I say, without realization of what is their gameplay doing to others.

Thanks to my time spent roleplaying on paper on some of the semi larp servers on the Mirc I had more than enough experience to turn any situation into a roleplay and "out roleplay" the other person if I was in the poorer situation than he is.
I used Y key heavily to find out where traders are and when are they coming and I used to send people (from my faction) at them and have them blow them up should they try to resist.
Then the mining came and I "noticed" more and more evil that was bothering my "holy ego that could do no wrong"

So my rp went deeper and I stopped (not that i was ever good) PVP completely, remaining only on piracy and smuggling for the time being. I just loved when miners f1ed or when people cried how they cannot form their own destiny in this game. I fed on their emotions, sanction reports (that I never got to see), their hate and their curse words that were sometimes even in my primary language.

There was also time when I behaved like a big hypocrite because I charged one zoner with all his cargo and let go of other one completely because he knew me from somewhere else. During all this time I often commented how their roleplay sucks and how my roleplay is the roleplay people should be guided with.
The anger slowly grew and sometimes I would think about Freelancer when I was far from the freelancer. Not even weed helped that much, as soon as the talk was boring or no girls were around I would sink into Freelancer thoughts and plotted the corporation slowly.

Out of self love, not wisdom I decided to let go of bringing "karmic justice" to the Sirius or Omegas and I decided to form that Corporation and see what would happen there. Because at that moment I would have a non PVP corporation that I could lead and people would listen.

See in OPG, I was pretty high at the top since Gentle knew my potential but I was always sucking at PVP, and thus I knew that I cannot just make another faction somewhere near because leader must lead in everything the corporation does. Again, while I spoke about taking a challenge to others, I myself was fleeing from it.
It's ok, it's only a game after all.

My ideas brought fruit, some of my ideas were recognized few months after I gave up on them, some of them made it into events ingame and we all had fun. But it was "fun" while things were going my way.




So I thought about that miner that I pirated, and his screams and his f1 and coming to hunt me with the capital ship he totally misplaced in Dublin, and my shield to evade him and cap8 ptrans with whatever on it that was just made to suck out that misery from the miner (not ore, screw that i had 3bil then, i was after the misery) and I realized that I'm equally to blame for this place as that guy that f1s and has 3 caps to protect his miner.

Root of the problem is the same you know? I'm just worse because I see his problem and he doesn't see mine.





factioned or not, if you have a clear head on your shoulders every encounter you will have will be interesting and the encounter where you find another clear headed individual will be something you'll remember longer than.. longcat.

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<span style="color:#33CC00">I AM GIVING AWAY MONEY TO CREATIVE MINDS*</span>